Random Thoughts 

So, this is the last full week of me being twenty-seven years old. Twenty-seven had many ups and downs. I have to say 2016/being twenty-seven was one of the hardest parts of my life. I had a lot of changes and self exploring/crisis happening. I had to explore what I truly want to be happy and I am still learning.

 First, twenty-seven was full of the most tears in my life. I am learning that I am getting burnt out with my job and with relationships. I am learning what I want in a relationship. However, twenty-seven is when I learned what heart break actually feels like. Not an amazing feeling.

 Second, twenty-seven I was told I have anxiety and social anxiety. I get worked up around people. I do see this. I want to please people so much but you just can’t do that.

Third, twenty-seven made me go back on track to being a healthy person. One point I lost 13 lbs. I got off track slightly from vacation but I am willing to work hard again. I need to be healthy for me.

Finally, twenty-seven has showed me who truly matter in my life. If people care, they will stay in my life. The best moments at twenty-seven was spending time with my family and friends and going on adventures with them. Laughing until I cry is a great feeling. I hope to encounter this and being surrounded by people who I care about at twenty-eight.


What a Wonderful Week

This week has been great. Monday was a great start with my Weight Watchers meeting. Going to the meetings are really helping me and giving me something to look forward to. Also, it is keeping me in check to count my points and care what I put into my body.

 I am enjoying counting points again. Also, I like scanning things to see what is a better choice or not. Here is an example of a healthy five point Weight Watchers lunch. I decided to have carrot chips besides regular chips for they are zero versus 3 or more. 

Not only am I doing well with eating this week, I went back to the gym. I know! Shocking! My goal is to go to spin classes three days a week and go to the gym and do something random once a week. Four days a week will be a nice getting into the swing of things. I am nuts because I go to a 6 am class. If you enjoy an instructor..you will do anything to take their class.

 Before you judge the bubble and poop looking face, I am getting really into skin care lately. When I was looking at my skin the beginning of this month, it was dry, oily, and I felt like I looked old. I am only twenty-seven, but I felt I needed to take care of my face. So, I went to Instagram. The first picture is a clay mask that is carbonated. It is the weirdest thing ever, but it really works! My skin feels so smooth. The next picture..I know, it looks like I rubbed poop on my face. However, cupcake from Lush had helped me with my oily skin. It is a wonderful mask that smells great! I am so in love with skin care.

I am becoming in love with me. My courses are going well this semester, evaluations for a rocky semester went well, I am taking care of my body and I am able to do what I want when I want..and not worry about stupid stuff when it comes to relationships. Single life is the best thing right now.

Have a wonderful weekend!


Joined Weight Watchers

 I have always been apart of Weight Watchers in a way. I used to borrow my Mom’s books and tools. In the old days before smart phones; I would actually write things done. Now with the app, things are easier. However, the app wasn’t good enough anymore. I was tired of doing this alone.

 My Mom always helped me. However, I feel she is in a different position in her weight loss journey. Also, she goes to meetings every week even after life time. I on the other hand, would do it all at home. Since 2015, I slacked off. I stopped tracking. I ignored things I was consuming. I was drinking a lot of alcohol and stress eating. 

Then 2016 hit me hard. I had major breakups, stress with work, a family health issue and I learned I suffered from anxiety. I was off the wagon hard core. I stopped going to the gym, eating healthy and let my mind race with issues that were not in my control. What I wasn’t doing was focusing on the issues that were important. 


 I don’t feel like sharing my current weight at the moment. However, I am glad I started now. I hope to get motivation from others and maybe motivate others again.

 We are human. I am human. Everything is not my fault. The only thing I can control is myself.

This is the year about me.

Wish me luck. =)


Things I Need to do More in 2017

 I got the motivation to leave my house and work out. It made me feel a little better and motivated me. I started to have a different mind set and I am pissed. I am not sad anymore; I am angry. I am a great person and I am tired of being walked over and pushed aside. I am tired of negativity and I am tired of feeling sorry for myself. This ends now. I only care about one person and that is me. I have built a big strong wall and it is going to take an army to knock it down. It is going to take the secret password to ever let you inside.

 Besides this..I need to be positive. It is negative and rather dramatic. However, I have ideas of being positive. 

1.) Workout more. I plan to go to spring every Tuesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday morning. I also have my nights back and I could take a yoga or kick boxing class.

2.) Eat healthier. I have been eating out too much and buying a lot of candy. The week before Christmas I ate three bags of candy in three days. No more of this.

3.) Stop drinking. I am done drinking. I am taking a stand and becoming sober for 2017. Drinking has ruined my brain. I am not even going to drink in moderation. For one year I am going to stop drinking and see how it changes my life.

4.) See more Broadway shows. I love Broadway and I need to go more.

5.) See more drag shows. I love watching drag shows and I love watching the confidence that they show off.

6.) Do more for charity. I want to do something for Autism Speaks this year.

7.) Go on more adventures with my friends. Adventures always go well and I always feel amazing after one.

8.) Do things on my own. Go to the movies, go out to eat, go to craft fairs and whatever. I can take my time and do what  I want to do

9.) Learn to cook. This will make my Mom happy.

10.) Work hard at my job and try to get a promotion or start teaching at a University.

 New year, new me and I don’t need anyone to tell me what to do. I will not worry what people say about me. I will say no and no apologize for it. I am stronger then people see me. I will prove everyone wrong.

Drinking More Water

 Lately, I have been feeling foggy and unclear with things. I do not feel awake or alert. I noticed I am not drinking enough water. I drink a lot of coffee and alcohol. I need to start going back to H2O. 

I did well yesterday. My goal is to hit 68 oz’s everyday. I am staying away from soda. I have been drinking too much of it. Also, I am going to start to watch my alcohol intake. I need to cut down to one or two drinks. I also need to learb to drink water in between.

 I am learning to get back to where I was. One step at a time.