Inspirational Board

I am feeling very crafty lately. 


 Today, I made an inspirational board. Since I was in a funk lately, I did research and found this project to boost confidence and motivation. I found wonderful quotes and words that I felt described me. Also, I am hold a sloth and that was the happiest I ever was.

 -Jackie 

What a Wonderful Week

This week has been great. Monday was a great start with my Weight Watchers meeting. Going to the meetings are really helping me and giving me something to look forward to. Also, it is keeping me in check to count my points and care what I put into my body.


 I am enjoying counting points again. Also, I like scanning things to see what is a better choice or not. Here is an example of a healthy five point Weight Watchers lunch. I decided to have carrot chips besides regular chips for they are zero versus 3 or more. 

Not only am I doing well with eating this week, I went back to the gym. I know! Shocking! My goal is to go to spin classes three days a week and go to the gym and do something random once a week. Four days a week will be a nice getting into the swing of things. I am nuts because I go to a 6 am class. If you enjoy an instructor..you will do anything to take their class.


 Before you judge the bubble and poop looking face, I am getting really into skin care lately. When I was looking at my skin the beginning of this month, it was dry, oily, and I felt like I looked old. I am only twenty-seven, but I felt I needed to take care of my face. So, I went to Instagram. The first picture is a clay mask that is carbonated. It is the weirdest thing ever, but it really works! My skin feels so smooth. The next picture..I know, it looks like I rubbed poop on my face. However, cupcake from Lush had helped me with my oily skin. It is a wonderful mask that smells great! I am so in love with skin care.


I am becoming in love with me. My courses are going well this semester, evaluations for a rocky semester went well, I am taking care of my body and I am able to do what I want when I want..and not worry about stupid stuff when it comes to relationships. Single life is the best thing right now.

Have a wonderful weekend!

-Jackie

Transformation Tuesday: NonSelfies


 Usually when I take a picture of my face; I like the selfie angle. It makes sense. Gravity. Lately, I have been accepting straight on pictures of myself.

  The first picture was taken in 2012 when I was twenty-three. The second was a couple weeks ago in 2016. 

Does anyone hate getting their picture taken? Even at my heaviest I let people take a pictures of me. Why? Whenever I have children, I want my kids to see how nice and fun their mom’s life was and is. I also want to be remembered if I am not around. Morbid, I know.

This is the digital ages. Embrace your image. You are all beautiful.
-Jackie

Positive Today; Positive Tomorrow

 I noticed that my blog was getting a lot of traffic today; so I decided to post something small. 

 I have been having a great month of August. My mood had been at a all high and my confidence is great. I have someone in my life currently who is a postive rather than a negative. 

I have been eating somewhat better but I am tracking my food more. Drinking has been less recently. I think it is due to my high spirits. My mood and personality is drastically different as well. I am looking at life in a different way.


 I mean, wouldn’t you feel positive after holding a sloth and feeding her a carrot? 

 Weight loss is not just about losing weight. I thought it was about losing numbers off the scale. I didn’t have to just lose weight but I needed a personality check. My mind has been so foggy and unclear for so long. I sort of lost myself. Now, I am realizing I am a good person and being happy and healthy is what matters.

 The school semester starts soon. I am excited to mentor and motivate my students to become critical thinkers and writers. I am excited to see what the future holds. The future looks bright.
-Jackie

 

Timehop does it Again 


 I love the Timehop app because it keeps me focused on what I used to look like and how unhealthy I was.

 FYI..my site has been getting a lot of traffic lately. I see comments, but sometimes I do not answer them right away. Also, if you email me I may not see that right away either.

**PLEASE..do not email me to ask me to review a product or anything that deals with weight loss supplements. I did not use any supplements for my journey and the only thing I paid for was Weight Watchers. I will not review anything unless I picked to purchase it myself.**
-Jackie

Confidence in a Bathing Suit

Summer is approaching and pools are opening. The beach is packed due to MDW. Here I was freaking out, because I have not found my dream bathing suit yet.

  I posted a before shot of myself a few posts ago and I was in a bikini. I don’t think that is the right swim suit choice for myself. My body type is just not a bikini type of gal. 

 So, I went to the mall yesterday and was trying to figure out what kind of bathing suit should I purchase. There are so many styles that it is overwhelming.


 So many types and how do you know which one makes you feel comfortable and confident? Well, you need to suck it up and not be afraid to get out of your comfort zone. I know that is hard but you need to be adventures. Just pull it off the rack and try it on. It is only you inside that dressing room. Who cares, right?

  I went into the clothing store Torrid last night. I used to shop there all the time and I sort of forgot about the place. I forgot that the store caters to the traditional woman. You know, with curves and no thigh gap?

 I was hesitant at first because shopping there reminded me of being my 235 pound self. I was a size 4 in that store due to my size. What I noticed now, I am a size 1 on top and a size 2 on bottomed. That is a huge accomplishment and I should be proud of that. It means I have a body shape. My body shape was the same size bottom and top in the past.


  I was in the store for a long time. I had to pull different sizes and different styles. It was so over whelming. When I first went to the dressing room I had 18 items in my hand. The employee at Torrid let me in the dressing room with all of the items because my purse was tiny and I was wearing shorts/t-shirt. How could I stash anything? The employees were very nice and accommodating to my needs.

  It was a rough process trying to figure out my style. I learned quickly I am not a one piece type of gal. I looked and felt like my younger self again..in a bad way. I feel like a little girl..which nothing screams sexy or confident when a woman feels like a six or eight year old girl.

Yes…sexy.

  A tankini type bathing suit was what I always went towards. They are easy because you put on a pair of shorts and you are ready to go. I didn’t want to fall back to the same bathing suit. Plus, they are really not in style now.


 What could show my age but not make me feel like a grandmom? What would give me the confidence to show off my curves but not feel self conscious? 


 BAM! Never in my wildest dreams would I purchase a bathing suit like this. First, it is a skirt based bathing suit. I always though skirts were for housewives who popped three children out. (Sorry, if you wear a skirt! =P) I also never though a built in bra would be comfortable in a bathing suit. It does not dig into my body and it is very comfortable.

 The bathing suit is two pieces. I can show some of my skin if I wish but I love how it looks like a dress. 

 So, I thought bathing suit shopping was going to be a disaster. I thought I was going to leave the store with nothing and feeling defeated. I was wrong! I feel confident, sexy, and I can not wait to wear my bathing suit somewhere.

What type of styles do you guys like? What fears do you have? What works for you to get over the fears! Comment below and let me know. =)
-Jackie

I am Sorry, Bob Harper!

Day 3 and I am jello. I feel like I have no bones or muscles and that my body is just moving along like one big slinky. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy feeling sore because it means I am doing something right. I have not felt this soreness in months..maybe in a year.

I do hate starting over. I used to be the squat queen. I could get low and stay there for minutes. I used to do pylo squats like a beast. Now, I feel every muscle in my body shake like crazy when I squat and I am not even that low. It is nuts how stopping makes you weaker.


 This is a eye opener for not stopping. I don’t think I gave up. I got busy and made excuses. Excuses should be stopped..but..I AM SORRY, BOB HARPER!

 God..these past two workouts have killed me! Your workout DVDs are brutal to someone who has stopped working out as much as I used to. I am sorry we broke up..I really am. Now I can back and now you are making me suffer and pay..in a good way.

If you do not know because you are new to my blog or living under a rock…I am a huge Bob Harper fan. Bob Harper is from the Biggest Loser. Back in 2012 when I started to lose weight, I did nothing bug read his books and so his workout DVDs. In 2013, I met him when I appeared on the Rachael Ray Show.


 I find him to be motivating without being scary. Some workout DVDs are just scary to me. They do not start off slow..and a lot of them do not welcome beginners. If you are interested in trying him out, I recommend starting with The Biggest Loser based workouts. They are very welcoming. Also, pick up his book The Skinny Rules; this book has a lot of helpful tips.

So, sorry Bob. I am back. Please help me be strong again.

-Jackie