I have been away from this blog for a long time. I apologize, but things have been tough. I had a huge shake in my personal life and it has caused me to lose focus on what is important. Myself.
I focused all my time on work and doing things that was not healthy. I was drinking a lot and not sleeping. I have been go go go and not slowing down. I had to keep busy. I could not have my mind stay still. If it stayed still..I would be lost in my thoughts.
So, if you have been emailing me or reaching out to me; I am sorry for not responding. I am not a weight loss role model right now. I have been gaining weight and I have not worked out in a month. I lost motivation.
I am trying to get back on track. I had a week off and my mind is clearer. I hope to get back into old habits with eating right and workouts.
My alarm is set to go to spin class. I hope to go back to it. I decided to cut my drinking to only one alcoholic beverage. I need to stay away from carbs and sweets.
I need to work on myself. I am what is important right now, but it is hard to see it. Life is very stressful. I feel as if there is a lot of pressure on my shoulder that it is pulling me down and crushing me. I want to move on to “adulthood” but I don’t know what the next step is. I love my job and it is the only thing that gives me purpose..but it is not full time. It doesn’t help me move onto the next step.
I am searching for answers. My generation really got screwed over. Doing what you love is dead.
Anyway, I apologize for being low key. I am just struggling right now and I know no one wants to read that.