Sometimes..life does not go the way you thought it would go. Sometimes you have timelines and ideas but you soon realize they were only a concept. You thought you were happy but in the long run you realize nothing has changed and you have to make a change or else you will be unhappy. Life is too short to be unhappy.
Anyway, the last couple months I was filled with stress and emotions. I still feel some of this but things are getting better. In the last couple of months I have gained weight, snacked my life away, and have been drinking a lot.
My Timehop actually motivated me this morning.
This side by side motivated me because I do not want to be the person on the left hand side. I was so unhealthy on the left hand side. I had not confidence because I could not wear the clothes I wanted. I ate what I want and drank what I wanted..but I was slowly killing myself. I was 232 lbs.
I am afraid I will go back to this path. I am falling into old habits hard. I am not working out, I am drinking a lot (even by myself) and I am snacking on foods like sweets and chips. I am unhappy..so enough is enough.
I decided to put on workout clothes and hit the gym. Normally, the last couple of month; I would have just sat at home on a day off. I decided to put on my new sneakers and workout tank top and go to the gym.
What I need to do is treat the gym like it is my job. I need to make a schedule and stick to it. If I do not clock in, then I need to act like I am got to get fired. I need to change things with working out.
I need to change things with snacking. I am snacking of things that are normal but then I will go through the fridge and try to eat things that shouldn’t be smacked on like bread or cheese.
I also have been drinking a lot. I used to be a social drinker but now I find myself drinking alone. This is not healthy. I used to not drink at home either. This needs to stop.
I am going to change. This has been going on for too long. I need to be healthy again.