Working on Myself

I have had a lot of things going on in my head. A lot of stress and anxiety. Recently it deals with my job. The semester is almost over and because of this there is a lot of grading that will happen.

 When I am stressed I tend to eat junk and drink a lot. I am trying to figure out how to relieve stress with doing other things. 

 Lately, I do not feel like I am taking enough time for myself. I need to focus on myself rather than work and relationships. 

Only issue is how do I do that when there is so much to do with my job?

I will have to figure it out..


Rachael Ray Apperance was Three Years Ago!!

 Three years ago my Tumblr account with the same name was found by producers of The Rachael Ray Show. If you did not know, I am a huge Bob Harper fan. I have all his books and a lot of his workout DVDs. When I updated my Tumblr blog,  I wrote a heartfelt message to Bob Harper because the summer of 2012 was really rough for me.

 The summer of 2012 was when I started my weight loss journey but I was a nervous wreck when it came to working out. I knew nothing and I had no confidence to join a gym. Bob Harper’s DVDs helped me out so much that summer. 

When I was asked to be on Rachael Ray’s show I was skeptical. I was also a nervous wreck because I hate being in the spot light like that. I felt my story was important to address…so I sucked it up. 

You can watch the video here:

Bob Harper Double Surprise
After the show I got a wonderful amount of emails and feedback. I received so much that I decided to make this blog. This blog is three years old too and so much has happened since this television appearance.

I did lose 80 lbs after this appearance but did gain 30 lbs back. I did battle depression over this but I have to come realize that life is not about the number on the scale. For the first time in my life I am comfortable in my own skin. I wear what I want and look how I want without caring what others may say or think about me.

I was working on my masters degree during this appearance. It was rather amusing because I had to bring proof to my Utopian/Dystopian professor to prove that I was appearing on the show. I graduated back in 2015 and so currently teach English Composition/Reading at three community colleges.

I still workout but due to the crazy work schedule I do not workout as much as I would like. I do my best though. I am a huge spin fan and will do those classes two to three times a week. I do have a Fitbit and try to get 10,000 steps in. Some days are better than others.

 Life has been interesting. I am trying new things and going new places. In the past I spent time home and not enjoying life. My first year of my weight loss journey I spent a lot of time at home. I was worried I was going to gain all this weight. I finally realize that this is not living. 

Living is going out and doing things you find interesting or learn new passions. Stressing over the scale or how people may think of you is not worth life or anyone’s time. I wish I knew this sooner in life. 

So, The Rachael Ray experience was an amazing one. I wish it did not happen so soon in my weight loss journey because I was still learning about myself. I guess..I still am learning but I feel the place I am in right now is stronger than three years ago.


Four Years Ago and Now

 When this picture was taken of me four years ago I had no self confidence. I hated how my arms looked in this picture. I thought if I wore my glasses I would have not look I went the whole day blind. I was not comfortable in my own skin.

 A lot has changed now. This picture was taken last night and I looked good! I did not care what others though about me. I showed my arms with pride and wore my glasses to full nerd potential. Even though I lost weight and gained some back I am still comfortable in my skin. I do not feel fat. I feel strong.

 Strong is the word for both physically and mentally. When you look under the clothes I do have a tiny six back happening. It is tiny. My legs are strong from spin class. My arms are able to knock you out with my fists. I am strong physically.

 Mentally I am strong because I don’t care what people say about me. Don’t like my arms? I don’t care. Don’t like I am wearing glasses? I need them to see and they are not a fashion statement for you. I can still wear makeup and look glamorous with them on. 

I am learning two things at the age of twenty-seven.

1.) Who cares what others think? I am not here on earth to please every single one of you. Only the people who matter.

2.) Strong is the new skinny.


I Love Bread..Me too, Oprah 

 I have learned that I am eating high amounts of carbs and it comes in the form of bread..or beer. For the sake of this post, I will address my bread attiction. 

 I think I eat bread at every meal. I know that shouldn’t be a bad thing but I lately have been trying to figure out what I consume too much of. I don’t want to cut bread fully out of my diet but I do want to cut back.

 Last year I realized I had a snacking addiction to cereal. Now, I do not eat cereal at all. I found myself eating handful of cereal right out of the box when I was bored or mostly stressed out. I am finding the the same with bread. 

 So, I don’t want to cut bread out like I did with cereal but I have to learn self control.

Next I have to look at alcohol…but one step at a time. 😂😂

Transformation Tuesday: No Quirky phrase Needed

  2012 vs. 2016. I can’t believe the before picture was 2012 in April. I am almost coming up on four years when I realized I was unhealthy.

 I have slipped since starting and I have gained since starting but nothing is perfect. The weight loss process goes up and down. When I gain weight during the week all I can do is reflect and see what I did.

 I do want to do some type of weight program for my arms. Not that I feel negative towards my arms but I do want to sculpt them to make them look strong. Strong arms look awesome during the summer.

 If anyone has a weight program for arms, let me know! 


Up 1 lb This Week

It is okay. My birthday was this week. Also, work has been stressful and I didn’t hit the gym like I did. I am glad I see what I did though. I accomplished a lot this week. 

I am grateful for more in my life than my weight. I am grateful for my career and this morning it is 100% I am teaching at another college.

I am grateful for my family.

  I am grateful for my friends. They keep me sane.
I am grateful for my boyfriend, Brian. Even though we do not see each other as much as I would like..I know he is my best friend and my rock.

I am grateful to be 27. I am grateful for life and being the first rate version I can be.


Happy 27th Birthday to me

Yesterday was my birthday. I have been alive for 27 years.

I decided to show a picture from last years birthday and a picture from yesterday. Even though I am going back and forth with weight, I think I have lost weight. I can’t believe how short my hair was. It is growing out pretty well.

Happy Birthday to me. Thank you for the birthday wishes everyone.