I have not been posting because I can not find anything positive to say. I try to be positive but I would be a liar. I have an addiction and things are just getting worse. My goal is so far away. Once it was so close and it seems to get farther and farther away from me..
I am stressed. I am 170 lbs and it is because I can not stop eating. I have a problem and it is my addiction to food. I am emotional eater. I eat when I am happy, sad, bored, anxious, and depressed. I can not stop thinking about food. When I work out that is all I think about. When I am at home I think of eating. The only time I do not think about food is at work but since my hours were cut I am home earlier. Good news is I am leaving in Feb to start substitute teaching but hours are not always consistent and that makes me worry..So I eat more.
I am failing. Failing big time. I workout but my eating habits are shit. I have tried every type of motivation but nothing is working. I changed weight loss strategies, I tired putting subliminal messages in my car/mirror, I tried reading Bob Harper again, change different workouts…but nothing is working. Nothing is motivating me to go back to what I did and stop eating..
Sure..you are going to tell me it is up to me to stop but THAT IS NOT WORKING EITHER. I stayed positive and talked about this keep positive and it is your health and your body but clearly that is not working either.
I am just so disappointed in myself..
Everything I am doing is not working. I just keep eating…I am failing.