On Friday, January 16th I graduated at Monmouth University with my MA in English. It is one of the biggest accomplishments of my life. I worked so hard for this accomplishment. Many nights of reading, research, and writing, but I did it.
Not only this but when I look at pictures of myself when I received my BA..I noticed something about myself. Even though I was happy and smiling..I really was not happy. I was 232 lbs, I was unhealthy, my confidence level was low, and I did not like the way I look. I hated my BA pictures. The gown was too tight and I felt I looked huge. When I look at those pictures I knew there had to be a change. My BA pictures were showing me that something had to change.
Since my BA I have lost 80 lbs but I did gain some weight due to muscle and some poor choices. Overall I lost 65. When I look at my MA pictures I feel a sense of accomplishment. Not just because of my degree but my overall journey as a person. A person who wanted more knowledge, a better life, and to be healthier.
If you saw me on The Rachael Ray Show, a huge part was me being unhappy in my BA cap and gown. I refused to have my Mom hang any of the pictures up on the wall. I did not like what I saw. My graduation for my BA was May 2012 and the same month after my graduation party I started to make a change. I decided to make a difference with my health and body. I stopped treating my body like a trash can.
During my BA my roommate and good friend worked at the local bar. I went every weekend. Free/reduced prices on drinks and food. Everything was so bad for you too. In undergrad you started drinking as soon a Thursday and during midterms/finals/and papers it was all week. I treated my body like a trash can.
When I started my weight loss journey I barely drank and went to bars. I remember two times really drinking my first year at my weight loss journey and that was my trip to Las Vegas in August and a beer festival in March.
Now I try to do everything in moderation. A beer will not kill me. A french dip ONCE in a while is okay. I do have to be honest I did gain weight during my thesis writing because I did drink a little more than I should. One of my goals for 2015 is to drink less. Since New Years Eve the 16th was my first drink. I had to drink for my graduation! I sound like I am in AA..Anyway…I am proud of my accomplishments.
I feel better about myself and I am proud of how far I have come. Yes, my BA was the reason for my weight loss, but I am not stopping anytime soon. Who knows what the future brings. I need to be happy and healthy for what ever comes my way.
I would like to thank everyone who has been supportive during my weight loss journey and while I was working for my Masters. I know who you are and I am GRATEFUL for what you have done.
Thank you again. You the reader mean the world to me. I am very grateful you read my blog and watch my journey. I am grateful to gain praise but also receive advice. I am grateful to help others as well. Thank you!!
Did I mention I got cake…I love cake. Yum…=)