Dear High School self,
It has been seven years since graduation and what I have learned over the last couple years was that I worried about the dumbest things and did nothing to prevent certain moments in my life. This is a letter to my senior year self.
1.) Don’t worry about what people think of you. Sure, people say hurtful things but that girl who laughed about your double chins had three kids before she was twenty-one and the boy who called your FATSO looks like a dirty skater hippie.
This is hard to do but life does get easier and people soon do not matter outside of high school. The high school clique chain does not matter and people move on.
2.) Stop being lazy. Move a little and try to be athletic. Stop lying to your gym teacher you “forgot your gym clothes” so you do not have to participate in gym. Half the people in gym class suck just as much as you do. Seven years later..no one from your graduation class will be on The Eagles or Phillies. So we all sucked.
3.) Stop worrying about boys. You will be in an amazing relationship in seven years and it will happen when it happens. Do not let the boys who turned you down for senior prom dates get to you. Those boys are lame. Plus think how awesome you were for asking those boys yourself. Yeah..you had to do it for junior and senior prom but you did something most girls could never do.
4.) Your personality is awesome and do not change it. You are sweet, kind, silly, and willing to do anything for everyone. Do not change to please people.
5.) Just because you can drive now does not mean you have to constantly make Taco Bell or Wawa runs. This will be the down fall for your weight. You have a job and not many bills to pay so you think fast food is awesome. It is not! Save that money. You will wish you did not waste it.
6.) Do not stop acting because you felt you did not look the part for the best roles. You always felt you were too fat to play the lead and you only could be the comic relief or grandma. Do not get hung up on this. You will regret it and not know what to do with yourself when you get a job as an actor at a horror attraction seven years later.
7.) Stop taking so many naps. I guess this is the same for stop being lazy. You are napping too much and missing the days. Go out for a walk! Stop being lazy.
8.) The friends you have in high school you will not have forever. Half of them with drop off the face of the earth when you graduate. So remember all the times you bust your ass to please people or went out of your way for them? Don’t. Also tell these people off..like the one who forgot to pick you up for dress rehearsal because it was 4/20 or the boy who refused to do Saturday detention and could not go to prom. WHY THE HELL DID YOU NOT STAND UP FOR YOURSELF!?
9.) Join a sport. Rather than being the theater geek, you should have done something more active. You really should do dance. If you did dance classes you could have gotten roles in the musical and be more active.
10.) The only thing you should worry about with the future is your health and education. You will be soon finishing a MA degree in January and you will lose 80 lbs and be more active. Focus on being healthier to make your life longer. You will be happier and your confidence will improve.
Do not let high school bother you. Kids can be mean but the good news is you will NEVER see the mean ones again. If they try to add you on FB you can simply ignore. High school is only a little part of your life and you will get through it.
I felt this vent/rant was necessary.