Today is weigh in day. I do Weight Watchers but I do it at home. Yes I follow the plan..no I do not go to meetings and I do not do online. I use all the supplies my Mom has received going to her meetings. I just can not afford it. My money issues can be another post…It is not necessary now. Well, I got on the scale and I am at 153 lbs. Which is great because I lost 1 lb from last week but I am still not where I was the Friday when Allie got here. Now I am happy that I lost 1 lb because I went to the Phillies game on Wednesday and ate really bad food. I am just annoyed that I am not at 152 lbs. I do not know why I am hard on myself because of the statement I just said about the Phillies game. I seem to part take in more bad food and decisions lately. I know the problem of this..
SUMMER! Summer is rough people! Why do people complain about Christmas and Thanksgiving when they are only one day..maybe a couple depending on Christmas parties and family gatherings. I lost weight during Christmas and Thanksgiving festivities. There always seems to be something going on in the summer with bad food and most of all DRINKING. My parents like to sit on the deck on Tuesdays and the way my Dad keeps asking about a drink guilt trips me into doing so because I feel like he thinks I am not having a good time sitting on the deck just drinking a bottle of water. The one time he told me I should pull out the Jimmy Buffet and make fruity drinks because I looked bored. Just because you sit outside does not mean you need to drink alcoholic drinks every time.
Summer blows for a weight loss girl. Events happen on weekends and weekdays. The only thing I have going for me is I am so poor I can not afford to go to the bar with my friends. It stinks because I can not hang out with them but it is better for me because I am not drinking points. Summers are rough. I know I am going to go back to 152 lbs by next week but then I go to Jamaica soon so I feel like this is the toughest thing ever.
Anyway, looking on fun moments..I did go to the Phillies game with my brother, boyfriend, and friend Harrington. It was a lot of fun because I have not gone in five years. I had two beers, a under whelming hot dog, and nachos. I did indulge in a lot of bad food but I did save points for the meal. We had awesome seats and the game was fun even though they lost. I hope we can go again.
I need to stop being so hard on myself and just enjoy life. I have accomplished so much but I only have 20 lbs to lose to hit my goal. I feel like this 20 lbs will never melt off. It is going to take a lot of time. I just need to live one day at a time and not let the scale define me.