Weekends are a Struggle

The weekend is my enemy. As much as I love not going to work I feel as if I slack on the weekends with clean eating. Yes, I do workout because I feel I have the time but I always find food kills me. I also feel I have programmed this thought in my mind where the weekend means I can “cheat” and it is terrible. 
 Not only this but there are SO many events on the weekend for me. Parties, going out to bars and restaurants, and ect. Last night I went out with my girlfriends. We went out to eat first. I got a egg white feta and spinach omelette, tomatoes, and three small sausages. I was so proud of my food choice. I never seem to make good choices when I go out to eat. I did last night. Granted..I did have two tequila Sprites and some weird (but delicious) alcoholic pudding at the bar. I still was proud I controlled myself.

  Tonight I am going out with Brian. We decided Saladworks and I planned my meals ahead of time. We are going to the drive-in to see two movies and we are not getting food there. Usually, I will get food there but it is all so bad for you. I feel I am doing the right thing for tonight. So proud of myself.
 Tomorrow should be fine too. Nothing crazy will happen tomorrow. I should be fine if I plan accordingly. I enjoy doing Jumpstart to Skinny. I did cheat with having a drink but I feel I am excelling in everything else.


I Lost 3Lbs in 5 Days

 Nope, the scale is not just being nice because I worked really hard. Bob Harper’s Jumpstart to Skinny is really helping me out. The last couple of days has been slightly difficult. Wednesday I was extremely hungry after work. I work two jobs on that day and I usually eat lunch early due to substitute teaching. My second job does not have me leaving until 8ish and I was so hungry!! 

  I have been drinking lots of water which is something I never did before. I did not cheat except last night. I went out with a friend and I did have ONE drink. I nursed that drink for an hour and a half. It did not matter because I still lost weight. Usually when I go to a bar I drink two to three drinks. So I was proud I could nurse a drink.

  I am excited what the next two weeks  will bring for Bob Harper’s program. I do have some conflicts coming my way with graduation parties and a early Father’s Day. Wish me luck!


Day 2 On Jumpstart to Skinny

 So far this program is going pretty well. Yesterday was day two. I thought if I only ate 20 WEIGHT WATCHER points I would be so hungry but I am actually fine. I think it is because of all the water and fiber I am consuming. I am currently on day 3 writing this post and I did wake up hungry but I woke up pretty late today.

  Anyway, yesterday was sort of like Monday. Same breakfast and same lunch. I do not usually get bored for breakfast but I may grow bored for lunch. We shall see. I made Weight Watchers egg salad and it is almost gone anyway. 

  My only problem with yesterday was I did not workout as much as I wanted to. I did 15 minutes of things in Bob Harper’s book but I did not actually workout because I worked all day and got my hair cut. I know that is an excuse but it is tough. 

 The last two days all I think about is snack food. I have a huge problem when all I want is candy and chocolate.  I actually have been craving Oreos lately which is so bad! Since 2012 I have not eaten a Oreo. I have not bought a box of Oreos. I feel like if I ate one or bought a box I would be awful and I would not stop. No Oreos for me.


 I am trying to not eat out or eat a lot of processed food. I think this program has been helping. I also have been trying to stay away from a lot of carbs. I think so far I am doing really well with the program. I am actually excited to stand on the scale on Friday.

 I got a new hair cut! It is so short. I also think the hair cut made my face look slim. I love it! 


Day 1 on Jumpstart to Skinny Program


   Just to point out that this is my motivation for the next three weeks.
Today is my first real day doing the Jumpstart to Skinny and I think it is going really well. I woke up at five because I had a sub job at the local high school. I did fifteen minutes of sit ups and air squats. I did this before eating breakfast.

    I prepped my meals for today. Breakfast was a cup of fit and active cereal with berries and one cup skim milk. I had an apple and coffee. I still put sweetener but I used to put four to five packets in my cup. I cut it down to two.

  For lunch I packed light and fit Dannon peach yogurt, a egg salad sandwich, and slices of red peppers. The egg salad sandwich is a recipe from the Weight Watchers website. It states half a cup is 3 points but I use a little more then that. I usually dress my sandwiches with lettuce, or tomatoes, or both. 
 I am not sure what I am having for dinner yet. Bob says to not eat all lot of carbs past breakfast. Granted, I had bread during lunch..but I do not think that will kill me. I may have a salad or something with no crabs. I need to go through the fridge.

 I am only on 20 ounces of water. I forgot to drink two glasses before breakfast. I am actually glad I forgot because I only drank ten ounces during home room to third period and I had to use the restroom so bad. I may need to skip that rule or I will be wetting my pants while substitute teaching and I already do not get respect.

 Tonight I am going back to doing Insanity at my local gym. I have not done the workout in a month. I may die but I need to do something to really work my body. I got bored of the workout though and I felt o was not good at it anymore. I was too busy stuffing my face with junk and felt sluggish and sick during the workout. 
 So far the program is going well. I do not feel famished or anything. I think the real test will be night time when I can not snack. I am so used to snacking so much I am going to have to old my cravings. Do not be surprised I post random posts on here at night to get my hunger pains out of my mind. I just love to snack..a little too much. 
 Jumpstart to Skinny is working for me so far. Let’s hope it continues.  


Losing 20 lbs in Three Weeks

Yikes! Where have I been? My last blog post was May 5th and it is almost June. No, I did not die..I just stopped posting. Why? I was not losing weight and I lost my motivation. I kept gaining weight and my workouts were ending. Once I was 152 lbs and now I am at 175 lbs. I have gained over twenty pounds. Do not get me wrong..I did not gain it over night. I actually gained it in the course of two years. I just could not seem to get my weight back down. Last summer I was around 158 to 162 and I was fine with that. I thought, “Maybe this is the weight I am supposed to be.” I thought..I am still working out and being somewhat healthy, but I can indulge here and there. I was fine…until…LIFE happened.

If you are aware a lot of major changes happened in my life the last couple of months. Since January I graduated with my MA in English, I left my old job and gained five jobs..where one will be my dream job in the fall, I still have no health insurance, and my brother moved all the way to California where I live in New Jersey. Remember..he is my twin. So a lot has happened and I do not do well with change. I miss my old job with having co-workers, I liked health insurance, and I actually miss school. My five jobs are fine but I am missing what I used to have. Since I miss and stress..I eat. So in the course of a few months I gained almost ten pounds.


(The one on the left is from last year in May and the one on the right is this year.)

I got relaxed with going to convenience stores and buying candy..drinking more, and going out to eat. I stopped counting points/calories and just did not care because I was mindlessly eating. Since I was eating and gaining weight I started to loath working out. I started to feel sluggish. Insanity which I used to enjoy made me feel sick and I started to hate it for I felt I could not keep up. My workouts started to twiddle down.

Then the talking happened..people asking me if I am still “ON WEIGHT WATCHERS” or over hearing people talking about how I must of stopped. My worst fear has come true..people were talking about ME and my weight in a negative way again. Of course…I should not care and be like, “Who the hell are you to talk about me like that?” but it hurts and it reminds me of high school. No one wants to be around the fat girl. Trust me..I lived through it. It took me five times to ask someone to be my prom date and it was due to my weight.

So, I am here. I am going to try. You know what I am going to do about it? Two words…



I am going to practice his JumpStart to Skinny. I am going to give it a try. I received this book when I appeared on the Rachael Ray Show back in 2013. I have to be honest..I read the book but I did not think the book was for me. This program is not for everyone. The program is a 3-Week plan to lose 20 lbs quickly. IT IS NOT A LIFE CHOICE. This program is for important events such as a wedding, reunion, vacation, and ect..I am going away in the end of June. I am scared to death I will gain even more weight. Also, none of my clothes fit. Even though I have five jobs, I still have no money to go out and buy all these things. I just need motivation and confidence and I think this program will work.

So I am going to do my best to practice all of his steps in this program. I will do the best that I can. I do admit that I will not be doing his meal preps. I have my own ideas for meal preps. I did rejoin Weight Watchers at the end of April and I plan on sticking with that still. I do plan to follow his rules the best that I can.


Rule #1: Take Control with Proper Portions 

This is a no brainier. We all eat the wrong portion sizes. Just look at going to a restaurant. The portion sizes are crazy. I have to say I am not terrible with taking control with portions..when I am not lazy. I have been measuring a lot of stuff out lately but I need to take more focus on it.

Rule #3: Cut Back on Calories: Then Cut Back Again

Bob suggests that I eat 800 calories a day. That is really not a lot. As crazy as it  sounds..it can be done. I did the math with Weight Watchers. I found many sites that say that 1 Weight Watcher point = 40 calories. I am not sure how correct this is but I have seen this is numerous web sites. So I am allowed 26 points but it turns out that it is still TOO much for Mr. Harper. I would have to eat 20 points to have it equal 800 calories. 20 points is not a lot and it is very tough but if you plan ahead of time..it can be done. So for the next three weeks I will need to plan my meals ahead of time and NO SNACKS!!

Rule #3: Eat No Complex Carbs After Breakfast

I can do this. This seems pretty easy. I am not a pasta kind of girl so I will not miss spaghetti.

Rule #4: Get Rid of Water Weight by Drinking More Water

I am SOOO bad at this one. For some reason I never drink enough water. Bob Harper wants me to drink two large glasses of water before every meal and make sure I drink a total of 80 ounces a day. GOOD LORD…I will be in the bathroom every twenty minutes. My problem is I can not do this while substitute teaching. So I will do the best I can with drinking 80 ounces a day. I do agree I need to drink more water..

Rule #5: Get Your Electrolytes

I must admit that I never did this before…until I read this rule. Electrolytes is in fruits and veggies! Not sports drinks. I am the fruit and veggie queen!

Rule #6: Do 45 Minutes a Day of Low-Intensity Cardio, Preferably Before Breakfast

Here is the thing..I can not workout before breakfast. Here is how crazy I am. Ever since I was a little kid, when I woke up I HAD to eat something. My stomach will grumble and I will feel sick until I eat something. Also, I never have time in the morning. I usually wake up to my phone ringing for a sub job and I usually have to get ready quickly for it. As for working out 45 minutes a day..I can do that.

Rule #7: Five Times a Week at Any Time of Day, Do 15 to 20 Minutes of my Jumpstart Moves

This is pretty interesting. In his book he has some moves like Sit-ups,mountain climbers,lateral jumps,high-knee tucks,jump rope, burpees, and many many more.Now I could do one of these moves for 15 minutes before work.I will just wake up earlier to do this. 45 minutes is harder for me. I love the workouts he includes in the book.

Rule #8: Cut the Salt

Now I am pretty good at this one. Salt is awful because it makes you retain water..if you retain water..you then gain weight.

Rule #9: Take Advantage of the Restorative Power of Daily Fish Oil

Erm..I am not sure about this one. I know nothing about fish oil.


Rule # 10: Fall Back on Veggies!

Again, this is easy. I love Veggies.

Rule # 11: No Fruit During Week 3

Say whaaaaaaat?! I LOVE FRUIT! I eat an apple every morning. After reading the chapter it did make sense. Fruit has  fructose and fructose is something that “skews our metabolism toward fat storage rather than fat burning” (Harper 39). So it makes sense. I do not think a apple that week will kill me but I may try to cut down on the fruit for that week for what he says in the chapter makes sense.

Rule #12: Lay Off All Booze

For the love of God..get me away from this stuff. I am a firm believer booze is why I gained this much weight. I can lay off the booze until my vacation. I know I can.

Rule #13: An Espresso a Day…or Two or Three

I have never had an espresso. I drink coffee in the morning though. Bob Harper tells us it is supposed to be taken black and with no artificial sweetener. I do drink my coffee black but I have to admit I use sweeteners..which I know are bad for you. Maybe instead of drinking the espresso..I will stick to coffee but try something else to make it sweet.

So here we have it…all the rules. Again, the book has meal plans which seem great but I am starting this tomorrow and I do not have the time (another excuse) to go out and buy things. So I am sticking to Weight Watchers and my 20 points a day. I have a meal plan of my own written out where I am following all these rules. Maybe I will post it in the future.

I am nervous..I really want this to work. I need to get my mind out of the gutter and really work for this. Bob Harper..you helped me once before..I know you can help me again.


Wish me luck..


Stressed Out 


 I am sorry I have not updated in a while. To be honest, nothing exciting has happened with my weight or workouts. Like I stated before I feel to exhausted to work out. I know that is not an excuse but I feel stressed out and I feel exhausted due to it. I find myself binge eating for I am stressed and I am a little depressed.

  The last couple weeks have not been so hot at work. I just want to teach. I have worked so hard to come this far and I am being slammed into a brick wall. Some jobs the kids are so disrespectful and I find myself controlling to get my respect from them rather than getting a lesson done. 

 One time I made a class write the classroom rules twenty times and when they were done they could go to recess. The other day I had to kick kids out of the room because they were so disrespectful. I never kicked kids out before. I was in a reading class and I am teaching it in college in the fall!! I was so excited until I found myself correcting them and kicking them out rather than teaching. It was a waste of a day. 

 Also, it is not the kids but the faculty. Not all schools but some schools the faculty will not even acknowledge my existence. When I need something or help I am treated like dirt. 

  Today I was just a body in a class room because they needed a certified person for the student teacher. Student teacher did not care how the students treated me and reprimanded me for trying to correct a disrespectful child. The child was disrespectful towards me and she did nothing. Yes..she is just starting but she should understand that something should have been done. It pisses me off.


 I have good days. Just this week and a few days last week were the worst. Maybe the students need spring break or maybe the PARCC testing has made them antsy. Still. I feel stressed. 

 I just really care and I really want to teach. I feel I can really help the students and help the teachers but I am not receiving any respect. 

 I then feel panic that I am not going to recieve respect from my college students and faculty members. I start to feel anxiety that maybe I am doing the wrong thing..but then what would I do? Since I feel anxiety I eat. I eat ALOT. 

  I understand that everyday will not be great but I need to start picking jobs that do not make me want to hurl off a cliff. Let’s pray tomorrow is better.


 On a plus side I got my nails done yesterday. I have not gotten them done since two days before Feb 14. It was nice to do something for myself. I got them done for autism awareness month. It is next month!! Make sure to wear blue on April 2nd!