Going Back to the Basics

My Mom hit 100 lbs loss this week and you know how she did it? She tracked everything down she consumed. My Mom and I we do Weight Watchers. We find that this program is the best way for us to change our old life style. My Mom is actually a member of the program while I piggy back off of her because I am too poor to join. Well, I have not been losing weight at all and you know why? I stopped tracking. When I thought I did so well two weeks ago with tracking, I really was not. I did not write everyday and I did not even add up exercise points. I was not tracking! So my Mom talked me going back to the basics. Since I am, I decided to give you am introduction blog for my new followers.



My name is Jackie and in 2012 I decided to make a change with my health. I was 23 years old and 232lbs. I was very unhappy with my life. I was weak and depressed. I had no self confidence. That summer I started Weight Watchers and wrote everything down. I worked out in the comfort of my own home because I was nervous to workout in front of anyone.  As the year kept going, I kept losing weight and my confidence was rising.




At the time my blog was on TUMBLR. I was contacted by the crew of The Rachael Ray Show to have me appear on their show because my fitness hero was Bob Harper. All I ever did was work out to his DVDs in the summer. I loved reading his books and I found him to be inspiring on the show The Biggest Loser. Google: Bob Harper A Double Surprise…to see the video.


So, things were going well. I was losing and tracking. I was so active. Being on the television show boosted my ego so much. I did things I never done before last summer. I did two 5ks, a man picked me up off the grown, I climbed the Dun River Falls..and more.

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Then something happened around Christmas time of 2013. I got lazy. REALLY lazy. I was still working out really hard, but I was not tracking. I would weigh myself EVERY single day thinking if I kept track every single day I could lose weight, but that was just stupid. In the summer I was 152 lbs and slowly I was gaining weight back. Granted, I do not know if it was muscle or weight..but I was gaining. I was starting to lose confidence again. I felt if I kept posting Transformation pictures I would feel better, but it was not working.




Sure, the pictures were making me feel better, but I also was lying to everyone. The picture says 152 lbs, but I was most likely 165 lbs. I gained 13 pounds since Christmas. I was ashamed of myself and felt really down. I was not really writing on here, because I felt I was not that great of a fit and weight loss blogger if I was lying to my readers and I was not even doing what I said to do. I was stuck at 165 lbs. The scale would not budge.

This all changes NOW. I got myself out of this rut on June 6 and started writing and tracking everything down for Weight Watchers. I started to use the 49 weekly points and counting my exercise. Everything I ate and everything I drank was written down in my book. NO MATTER WHAT! It was like I was starting all over again. You know what? When I weighed myself on that scale a week later. I LOST 3 LBS!!!!

The scale that would not budge from 165 lbs, went down to 162 lbs. All because I was tracking!! It works. GUYS, it really works!! Do not stop writing and do not get lazy. Do not be me!! Don’t do it. You will feel like crap. Now things will be different.


My goal this summer is to get back to 152 lbs. I believe I can do it. Ten pounds is hard, but I will need to work hard and keep on track. After this goal is reached, my next is to lose ten more to say 90 lbs. My graduation for my Masters Degree is in January and looking good in that cap and gown is why I started on this journey. I hated my undergrad pictures. This time it will be different. It is back to basics. No more lazy Jackie. No more slacker who is not writing on this blog. I will work hard physically and mentally. I know I can do this. I can get past this hurdle.

Thank you for reading.




Have you Hugged A Graduate Student Lately?

So, I have been silent lately due to my graduate studies. I just finished my thesis development and I felt highly satisfied with it. The process was a pain, but not a bigger pain then my other two classes. Right now I am trying to process a paper that I feel is total garbage. This whole semester has been stressful and it shows in my routine. Due to my long commute, my long assignments, my hours at work, and just all this stress my diet is showing it. Granted, I have stayed the same weight every week for the last four weeks and that is not a bad thing, but I still kick myself because I have been stress eating! Not even eating, but drinking too.

I have been doing so well during the day with eating healthy and counting my Weight Watcher points but at night I shove food into my mouth like it is going to be stolen from me. I am so annoyed with myself.   I only have two weeks left of graduate school and even though I wanted to be skinny for the summer, I will live with trying to get back on track for the summer. I am going to do different things and I hope I can keep these promises.

First, I am going to try and eat five small meals a day. I am noticing my meals are way too big and I eat only three big meals. This concept is not helping me because I am finding myself getting hungry quicker after my meals.  Of course I need to stop snacking. I need to stop sitting their and shoving snack after snack into my mouth. I need to learn to do other things beside watching T.V as well. Maybe go for a walk or clean my room/car. I need to stop SNACKING!!! ugh..



I want to try this because I always want to do CrossFit, but I do not have the money for it. This is awesome because you do not need equipment and it looks like awesome workouts.


I also, wish to do some type of ab challenge, because I feel like my core could be better. I bought a lot of shirts this summer that could show my stomach depending if I stretch high enough. I also feel like I do not do enough with my abs. My legs and arms look great, but my abs could be better.


I also feel like my plank ability is awful. I have no upper body strength and when I do my kick boxing class, I can not do a plank to save my life. I feel like this challenge will help me. I am not sure about five minute planks, but to get to 1 minute that would be awesome.


I know I have come a long way and I beat myself up, but I feel like I have more to lose. Sometimes I feel like I am people’s support group. People message me questions and are always asking for advice, and that is fine but sometimes I wish I had someone to talk to.  I have to stay positive and just get pass this speed bump.



Workout Wednesday

1338947669532_2078495  I want to try something new every Wednesday. I want to write about one of my workouts I enjoy or something new I have tried in the week. My favorite work out of all time is spinning. When I tell people I love taking a spin class they look at me like I have two heads. Something about riding that bike with different speeds, weights and positions really makes me excited to do the work out. If you have an amazing instructor, great music and an awesome crowd the the class is truly awesome. Plus you burn a load of calories doing it too! I love it.

My love of spinning started back in March of 2013 when I was 180 lbs. My first class was rough people. I did not move my butt off the seat at all. I tried to but I was too afraid due to having a weak core. My goal was to keep peddling until the sixty minutes were over. I did survive of course! This class is not easy for newbies but it is exciting to try. Once you understand how your body works and you are not afraid of getting up off the seat then the class is amazing! Soon I learned to do all the positions and learned to love the resistance. I lost a lot of weight with spinning. I started off being 180 lbs and now I am 152 lbs. Good diet helped of course but my work out of choice was spinning during this time.

I used to do spinning every week four times a week..but I soon stopped doing it so much because my body was getting bored. I was not losing weight and the resistance was not getting harder anymore. Now I do spinning once a week or once every other week but I do love it. Out of all the classes I take it is my true favorite. Someday I would love to teach a class.

spin-class-022410-lgIf you are interested in trying a spin class you should! It is a great work out. You can burn 450-500 calories in 45 minutes while spinning and you sweat like a crazy person during the workout. The class is more then riding a bike. It strengthens the muscles of the lower body. It tones the quadriceps and hamstrings, along with working the back and hips. This workout is not easy but why would anyone want to do a workout that is easy? You would not get anything out of it.  If your local gym offers this class you should really try it. People always think of the stereotypes when taking a spin class. They think the instructors are crude and run around the room screaming in your face. People always think they will throw up while doing the class too. It is not true! Always try something new people! I never been a class where people judge. People welcome newbies. I love seeing new people and I love helping them out as well. Try something new! You only live once.



I Lost 30 lbs in 2013! What Will 2014 Bring?



Happy New Year, everyone! As I stated before, 2013 was my year. I am excited to see what 2014 has to bring. This whole year I lost 30 lbs but 80 lbs overall. That 30 lbs has truly helped me a lot! I am going to continue on doing what I have been doing because it is working.

I do not believe in New Years Revolutions because they seem to be really big picture goals. Everyone always wants to lose weight but most people have a huge expectation in their head when they starts. When they decide to lose weight they keep this big number of what they want to lose and this is why they fail. Maybe instead of saying you wish to lose twenty pounds..Say you will eat healthy or go to the gym three times a week. Please keep in mind that a life style change will become a huge change but I feel you should start off small. That is my advice to everyone with the NYR.

For me..I need to get back on track because the holidays was filled of food and drinking. The only thing I was doing right was working out everyday but Christmas.  So for 2014 I will get back to writing down everything I consume, track my Weight Watcher points better and stop snacking/drinking alcohol. I really need to calm down with the snacking and drinking. I feel if I get back on track with this then my body will go back to feeling how it was before the holidays.

I also would like to continue to weigh my self only once a month. Not worrying about the scale has done wonders on me because I am not stressed out about the number on that scale. My goal this year is to not worry about the weight loss but the muscle I gain. I am going to gain weight this year but I wish to sculpt my body the way I want it to be.

Finally, rather then worrying about weight loss or muscle gain I wish to try new things. I have already done this last year but I feel like trying new things keep your life fresh and exciting. I climbed a water fall in Jamaica and ran in a 5K last year. Who knows what will happen this year? I still have a bucket list with many interesting and exciting things I have no done yet. Speaking of the bucket list..I am pretty sure I can gross things off on it. Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! I hope this year is a success for everyone. Make the best of it!


December Fitness

workingout Everyone always seems to ask me what do I do for work outs. I love working out and I love to try new things. I thought since I joined a new gym I should start something new. This is my fitness schedule for December. It is a rough draft because things do come up and thing can change but I felt it was kind of cool to schedule certain things. Classes are set because of time but if you notice it will say weight training or cardio. I am not sure what I will do during those days but I figure I would focus on one or the other. So I plan to do a schedule like this every month. I think a schedule will really motivate me to keep going. I think it will make me feel like I need to be somewhere. Happy Thanksgiving, everyone!! I am doing a boot camp class tomorrow! Wish me luck. =D



Helpful Tips and Secrets

So I have been rather quiet lately. I have been busy with work and graduate courses and it is getting on my nerves. I decided to take a break and write a helpful post on things I did back when I was 232 lbs. It seems so long ago but I was there.


The picture above was me the day before I started Weight Watchers. I was 232 lbs..the heaviest I had ever been. I felt unmotivated and very unhealthy. I had no confidence in myself with anything. My Mom started to do Weight Watchers while I was away at school and I decided enough was enough! I was going to get healthy. I changed so many things about my life style that I can not believe what I used to do.

 1.)  P a life style plan that worked for you.

I picked Weight Watchers for a couple of reasons. The main reason was due to my Mom being on it. She went to meetings and had the online function. Since I was a poor graduate student I did what we do best and steal things off of her. She was more then happy for me to do this though. She made healthy dinners and she told me how much point value things were. I love Weight Watchers because I feel like I can still eat what I want but I learned how to be smart about it.

2.) Learn About Portion Sizes

My main problem was portion sizes. I was actually eating pretty good stuff but I was eating TOO much of it. I am ashamed to say I used to eat 3 BIG bowls of cereal in one sitting. I could eat a steak the size of my plate. I could even eat slices of bread..YES, just bread. I was eating too much.

When I learned what portion control was I learned that this is what you are supposed to eat. Yes, it was hard at first because my body was tricking me I was still hungry. I fought back and tricked my body. I used smaller bowls and plates. If it looked like a lot of food then I felt I was eating a lot..but in reality I was eating the correct portion size.

3.) Be Active

You do not have to do the crazy work outs I do now. I did not start out that way. I used to only work out 15 minutes when I started. Sometimes I could not do an easy task such as jumping. Find something you like to do. If you love to walk then go for a walk. Start off slow but start to increase the speed or distance over time. It is your body. You do not need a personal trainer and you do not need to do crazy work outs…but you should be active. The saying is that ABS are made in the kitchen and not in the gym. This is true to a degree but you are not going to lose a lot of weight if you just sit around all day. It will soon catch up with you.

4.) Cut the Junk/Fast Food

This one seems hard to express to people. I hear stories where people go out to eat more then four times a week. I feel like my Mom was always good with cooking our meals while growing up. Going out to eat should be a TREAT. Eating out should not be because it is something easy..I hate when people tell me that the fast food joint was around and it was easy. I hate it because I used to do it! That stuff is garbage and it is not healthy for you at all. If you want to have it then it should be once a week.

Now..I know you think I am crazy and how did I get over this? I stopped going. I stopped going to those fast food places. I would just drive by. I know this seems hard but really it was not. If I did not go I did not crave it and if I did not crave it I did not want it. Soon when I would eat at these places I started to feel sick after eating it. Since I felt sick I did not want it even more. Why would you want to eat something that made you sick? Do not go! Why would you wait in line for something to eat? Eating should be for sitting down and put on a nice plate..Not in a brown paper bag. You might as well eat the damn bag because you will get more fiber from it.

I hope I did not lose you yet but here are things I did to get rid of the junk food. I started packing my own lunches. If I spent the time packing a nice lunch then I did not want to go out and buy something.

Also, I did the big one and I started to add up what I was spending on fast food. It was ridiculous! Yes, you may get something off the $ menu or that Muffin and Coffee is only $5..but add it up. How much do you spend in a year, month, week and day? You could use this money for something else! I felt as if I was eating my money and that was not a good feeling to me.

Now I found some healthier places such as SubWay, Salad Works, Panera Bread and my favorite Muscle Maker and they seem a little more managable when eating out. I still suggest to consider eating out to be a treat though. Do not think it is for being easy! You are not cheap and easy..your food should not be!

5.) Cut Out Drinking…Not All The Way Though

Since I was coming out of college you can only imagine how much I was drinking. Drinking in college usually starts on Thirsty Thursday..and goes until Sunday night because you need a stress reliever for writing that paper due in the morning. I am not saying stop drinking but try to cut it down.

When I used to live on my own or go to bars I used to make mix drinks. Mix drinks are the worse. You are basically sipping calories. Also those mix drinks in bars are awful because they are nothing but sugar and they do not even get you buzzed. Drinking a beer is not better for you but it sure does cut the calories out. Also, do not binge drink. It is not cute when you are out of college. No one wants to be around someone who drank 8 beers in one sitting. Enjoying a drink once in a while is not a bad thing.

6.) Be Prepared for Parties

Parties are so evil. It is a way to get people together to stuff their face. What I did and still do is I try to work out before a party. Get some kind of physical activity in that day because you may not do anything active at the party. If it is a party with active things to do I suggest doing them. If there is a pool or some kind of sport then have fun doing so!

If you are going to sit around and chat..I suggest not sitting. Stand. If you sit then you get too comfy and want to munch on the bowl of chips right in front of you. If you are standing you are not near the food on the table. Also, do not socialize near the food or alcohol. Stay away from it. It is okay to indulge at parties but try to make better choices and not be a pig about it.

7.) Do NOT give into peer pressure

What used to drive me crazy were the people who thought I was not “living” or “enjoying” myself. I still get people today telling me that I do not seem to have fun with my life. Food should not be considered, “FUN!” Fun is around to help you live. Food should not be a hobby. Do not crumble into people who pressure you to eat. Do not fall for people who say things like, “It is just a cookie” or “You have to eat sometime.” These people do not understand that you have a food addiction problem. I will NEVER understand this. If you were getting over drugs or alcohol would a family member or friend offer you that? (Maybe if they are awful people) but usually the answer is no.  I know my friends would never do this but when it comes to food I feel as if I am being pressured to eat. I AM ADDICTED TO FOOD! It is not just a cookie..because I can not stop with one cookie.

Think of it that way because I feel like this could help one out. You have an addiction to food. Talk to your friends or co-workers too. If you tell them it bothers you they usually do listen. If not..then maybe it is time to cut ties from certain people. You need to think about you.


Well, I am done for now. I have other tips and ideas but I am too tired to type anymore..LOL! So I hope this was helpful. Let  me know what you want to read. Ask me questions! I am here for you. You can leave a comment or click on the contact section. I am willing to listen and help anyone out. This should not be done alone. If you need motivation I am here for you. Give me feedback people!! I know people are reading..I see the numbers. Let me know you are alive! =D I would love to hear from you!



Weight Loss Goals for the Future



Lately I have been on a blog kick this week. Maybe it is because I do not want to work on my graduate homework. Working on an investigation and revision does not sound fun to me.

Anyway I was thinking about weight loss goals. I know I have a weight loss bucket list but that list is for fun exciting things. If you want to see my bucket list then you can click HERE to view it. This list is going to be more simple things I can focus on rather then the big picture. Lets face it people…here if my confession on why I have been struggling with losing weight the last couple of months!


1.) Stop Snacking

  Lately I have been guilty for snacking. I feel this is my major problem with not losing weight right now. In the past when I was 232 lbs..I would snack on things that were considered a meal like bowls of cereal, bread and fast food. Now I snack on what we consider snacks..like pretzels and chocolates but not in the right portion size. I am actually guilty for eating way too much and then switching to another snack. Also, my other problem is peanut butter. I am addicted to peanut butter now. Love it…and can not get enough of it.  I love to take pretzels and dip it right into the jar. So bad! I noticed since September I have been consuming too much peanut butter. I would have PB + J four times out of the week. This is not bad but maybe for my body..this is not good. So I plan to cut that out.

2.) Stop Going Out to Eat…If I Do Make Better Choices

I complained about this in a past post about not knowing what to do for date nights. Going out to eat has gotten better by cutting it down but I still go out time to time. Maybe instead of banning going out to eat all together..I need to make better choices. Maybe if I am getting a hamburger I do not need to order that high sugary cocktail along with it. Maybe I should be ordering fish rather then the ruben.  I just need to go back to my ways when I first started. I need to make better choices! I need to stop picking the unhealthy option. I know..YOU NEED TO LIVE..but you people do not understand..I keep thinking this all the time so when I NEED TO LIVE moment happens..it is more then once or twice a week. Sometimes more then one day. I need to be smarter with what I put in my body.




3. Track My Food Better

If you are not aware, I am on Weight Watchers. I am a food tracker. I write everything down. Well, the summer made me REALLY relaxed about that. During the summer I broke the habit of writing everything down because BBQs made it hard to track. Now that summer is over I need to go back to writing everything down. I feel like I have done a great job this week but I still could improve.

4. Focus on Me and Stop Listening to Others

Lately I have noticed people are not as encouraging as they once were when I started my weight loss journey. This is to be expected because my weight loss journey is old news. I have also noticed two things lately.

1.) People keep telling me I need to stop losing weight or stop working out as much. They tell me I am so skinny already that I do not need to keep going. Thank you very much society for telling me I am not fat but according the the BMI records I am still considered over weight. I am 5’1 and I weigh 152 lbs. I am still over weight. I want to be able to go into any doctors office and not be told I am over weight. This is a goal of mine. This is my body and I will do what I please. I am in a safe state of mind that I know the difference between weight loss and anorexia.  Thank you for your concerns but 152 lbs is no where near anorexia.

2.) If I am not eating people seem to FREAK out. Just because I am not eating does not mean I am starving myself. I am only allowed 26 Weight Watcher points a day. Yes..they have the plus points and the exercise points but I try not to use them during the week day. Also, on Thursdays before my weigh in I stay away from lots of carbs and sweets. If I am not eating a cup cake or having a beer it does not mean I am depriving myself. I do treat myself and I do have fun. I am a food addict people! You would not give heroin to a heroin addict would you? I need to stop letting this bother me.



5.) Change Up My Work Out

Your body gets bored of doing the same work outs. You should really try changing it every six weeks. I have been guilty for keeping the same work outs. This week I did try new work outs. I went onto my ON DEMAND and did some pretty cool work outs. Kick Boxing/Boxing is a lot of fun. I am thinking of joining a new gym where they offer classes and a personal trainer. I think a personal trainer could really kick my ass but in a great way.

6.) Work on Abs

I have been through a lot with this weight loss journey. My confidence of my appearance as been at a new high. My only problem is I hate my stomach. We all hate something right? I can say I hate it.  My goal is to work on my abs more. I seem to be so afraid of ab work outs because I hate that area so much. Well, if I ignore that area then nothing is going to be done about it. My goal is to wear a two piece bathing suit that will show my stomach next year for the summer. In order for this to happen I need to stop being scared of my stomach and do something about it!

48564522a638bad707c68bfae05cfcc6 Those are my goals. I had a lot of time to think about this. I really feel confident that these changes will help me those 20 lbs. 20 lbs more means I am considered a normal weight. This is my goal. I love myself though. I have come a long weigh from being 232 lbs and I am proud of myself. I just can not give up with what my true goal is. I will get there. My goal is to lose 10 lbs before the end of the year. I know to some they think 10 lbs is nothing..but if I lost 10 then I would be at a 90 lbs lost overall and that is a huge number! I have to take this weight loss journey a day at a day. It did not take one day to gain all this weight.