Working Towards My Goal



So for the last two weeks I have been writing down everything I have been eating and drinking, I weigh myself once a week, and I work out. Two weeks ago I was 169 lbs and now I am 163 lbs which is AWESOME! So, I need to stop slacking. In order for this life style to work I need to write down everything again. Even if I go over my 26 Weight Watcher Points it did not matter..I still lost weight. So, I am glad things are going back to normal. I hope to get back to 152 lbs in before June. I believe this can happen if I keep going strong at what I am doing now.

This week I noticed that it has been one year since I started taking spinning classes. That made me feel really good about myself. When I started to take spinning classes this is when I started to do my extreme workouts. Spinning really started for me to stop being afraid and start seeing what my body can really do. Before spinning I did not really lift weights or do any thing extreme. So, everyone who was my spinning instructor THANK YOU! You are all awesome in keeping my going.

So, I found out even though I am doing great and keeping track I have SOOO many events coming up. The end of this month I won a free Happy Hour at a dueling piano bar in Philadelphia. They serve drinks in buckets..LITERALLY..86 oz buckets. Then it is my Dad’s five year anniversary with Brian…the beer festival in AC..and something called MY BIRTHDAY!! So I have a lot of things coming up. I need to figure out what are the really important things to me and the other things I need to watch what I partake in. So I am working hard for these days..but all this will be over after April 5th and I will have to just go back to what I was doing.


My birthday is April 5th..and I will be turn 25! So I thought I would come out with a list of 25 things to do during my 25th year. I have some ideas already. I am exciting to write this list out. Having a list sometimes makes things more exciting. So, that should be out before my birthday. Now I must get back to my graduate school work. I have a major project due this week for my thesis. I am very nervous but I know I did great. This semester has been so stressful with homework! Enjoy the rest of your day!


Bringing Back the Motivation and Confidence with my Weight Loss Journey



Today I woke up with with motivation to work my butt off at the gym. I know I have been a Debbie Downer lately but this week has been pretty okay with eating right and working out. I have gone back to writing down EVERYTHING I eat even if I do go over Weight Watcher points. Also, I have been drinking so much water it is like it is going away forever. My workouts are also cranked up a notch due to me being comfortable with them. I need to get used to be comfortable with being uncomfortable.

I love the stair machine at my gym. It is as if I am climbing up actual stairs and I love it. It is an amazing work out too. It is the only machine where I am sweating like crazy. I do not recommend using this machine as long as I did if you never used it before.

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I love working out. Now I have to stop my love for snacking now.



Transformation Tuesday


Here is a quick post for everyone. I bet I look heavier then I really am in the before due to my posture and oversized shirt. Clothes shopping was so tough when I was heavier. I am 5’1 and everyone thinks all plus size is really tall. I do not have this problem anymore of course. These pictures amazes me how far I have come.


My Love for Bob Harper

Since it is snowing..again..I did not go to the gym today. I decided to pop in one of my Bob Harper work out DVDs. I have not done one of his workouts in such a long time and I forgot how much I love them. I never sweat as much as I do when I do one of his workouts. Also, I feel so sore but satisfied after one of his workouts. I love it.

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If you live under a rock or if you are new to my blog, I am in love with Bob Harper. I think Bob Harper is a great inspiration and his DVDs and books are great. Most people know him from the Biggest Loser but I was into him due to his workout DVDs first. I did start with the Biggest Loser workouts before I even watched one episode. ( FYI..Do not forget to watch the final episode of the Biggest Loser this week. I am super excited to see who wins this season! The episode is tomorrow!) I could not get enough of Bob Harper. I love reading his books because they help me put my mind in check.

I really think Bob Harper is the reason I have lost weight. Yes, my Mom did a huge amount of this due to our eating habits but she was not the one to push me into working out. Without working out I would have not lost 80lbs. Bob Harper did save my life.

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I did meet Bob Harper last April on The Rachael Ray Show when I lost 60 lbs. I was so star struck and so unsure with what was going on I was so silent and so nervous. I sort of regret this because I really did not talk to him. I was a stupid fan girl. Now I have lost 80 lbs and I have learned from Bob Harper that skinny is not everything and I rather be strong. A big dream of mine is to try Crossfit but it is too expensive. I try some of the Crossfit exercises that he posts on his Instagram but I could never afford to join a place that does Crossfit.


If I ever meet Bob Harper again I hope it is not in a dress but in work out gear. It would be awesome to work out with him. It would be AMAZING to take on of his spin classes but to try out Crossfit would be awesome. I can not complain though. I am humble I met one of the inspirations for my weight loss journey. I will continue to buy his DVDs and read his books. I love Bob Harper <3 <3



Life May Have Some Hiccups.



I have been very stressed out lately. It is rather sad because I just went back to school two weeks ago and I am about to throw myself off a bridge. Not really but I am just saying. If no one knows, I am a graduate student at Monmouth University. I live an hour and a half away from the school and I commute two days a week. I am studying English with a concentration in literature. I wish to teach at the college level someday but we shall see. I am currently working on my thesis. I am only on the thesis development stage and I already have a headache. What does this have to do with anything about this blog?

Stress creates negative thoughts..negative thoughts creates old habits..old habits creates lazy Jackie. I have not been working out like I have been these last two weeks and my eating habits are out of control.  I am highly upset because I thought working out was a way to get away from my stress. Well, I learned from this experience that I have not been this stressed out since my weight loss journey has started. It is amazing how the negative thoughts come back to my head. I thought I was pass them but they still linger in the back of your head. So strange.

What do you all do to get away from stress? What do you do? Some people tell me to do something artistic but the problem is I have no time. I should not even be writing on here because I have so much homework! I feel my job is a way to get away from stress sometimes even if my job can be stressful. I work with children who have special needs. Yesterday I pulled a child on a scooter with a hula hop and forgot all about my thesis for that half hour. Anyway, what do you all do to get away from stress? How do you get those negative thoughts out of your head? I am very interested in hearing your thoughts.



Workout Wednesday

I am so tired of this snow. I should be at work right now but due to a delay opening I am not. I am sick of the snow! So, rather than homework and working on my masters thesis I rather write a blog post. After all it is workout Wednesday!


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It took me a long time to get into Zumba. I will not lie. Sometimes the step work is so tough for me to follow but once I got the hang of  the steps it is a lot of fun. Who knew that dancing could be an amazing work out? The music can be a lot of fun and depending on the instructor they can be a lot of fun. What I really like about this work out is it works all part of your body including your abs. The workout is what you make of it.

The other reason I enjoy this work out is due to the fact that everyone can do it. Young to old..big to small. It is one of the only workouts I can do with my Mom. I took her to a spinning class and almost killed her. Zumba is a class that she can handle. So I like doing a class that I could do with almost everybody.

Zumba is so popular that you can find a class anywhere. If you are not part of a gym the classes I usually cheap being under 5 bucks or under 10. So it is easy to find a local class. So if you are afraid of the idea of working out and weights, try a Zumba class. It is a lot of fun and the music is great! Shake it!



I Want to be Strong, Not Skinny: My Progress With Weights


My goal is to not be a skinny stick. I want to be strong. Now I do not want to look like a huge body builder but I want to show I am strong. The first pic was taken in November with some weight training and the second was taken last night in January showing my couple months of experience. I do weight training 2-3 times a week. Only real tip I give is to watch a video or go to a personal trainer for help with weights. Also do not do weight training close to a weigh in because your muscles hold water and that causes them to make you gain weight. You will gain weight doing weight training but it is not fat, it is muscle. Muscle makes you look skinnier. If anyone needs tips or help please contact me!


Workout Wednesday

1338947669532_2078495  I want to try something new every Wednesday. I want to write about one of my workouts I enjoy or something new I have tried in the week. My favorite work out of all time is spinning. When I tell people I love taking a spin class they look at me like I have two heads. Something about riding that bike with different speeds, weights and positions really makes me excited to do the work out. If you have an amazing instructor, great music and an awesome crowd the the class is truly awesome. Plus you burn a load of calories doing it too! I love it.

My love of spinning started back in March of 2013 when I was 180 lbs. My first class was rough people. I did not move my butt off the seat at all. I tried to but I was too afraid due to having a weak core. My goal was to keep peddling until the sixty minutes were over. I did survive of course! This class is not easy for newbies but it is exciting to try. Once you understand how your body works and you are not afraid of getting up off the seat then the class is amazing! Soon I learned to do all the positions and learned to love the resistance. I lost a lot of weight with spinning. I started off being 180 lbs and now I am 152 lbs. Good diet helped of course but my work out of choice was spinning during this time.

I used to do spinning every week four times a week..but I soon stopped doing it so much because my body was getting bored. I was not losing weight and the resistance was not getting harder anymore. Now I do spinning once a week or once every other week but I do love it. Out of all the classes I take it is my true favorite. Someday I would love to teach a class.

spin-class-022410-lgIf you are interested in trying a spin class you should! It is a great work out. You can burn 450-500 calories in 45 minutes while spinning and you sweat like a crazy person during the workout. The class is more then riding a bike. It strengthens the muscles of the lower body. It tones the quadriceps and hamstrings, along with working the back and hips. This workout is not easy but why would anyone want to do a workout that is easy? You would not get anything out of it.  If your local gym offers this class you should really try it. People always think of the stereotypes when taking a spin class. They think the instructors are crude and run around the room screaming in your face. People always think they will throw up while doing the class too. It is not true! Always try something new people! I never been a class where people judge. People welcome newbies. I love seeing new people and I love helping them out as well. Try something new! You only live once.



Weight Loss Anxiety

7de92c8b55b12c6bad18dfb02cc01155 I seem to always have weight loss anxiety. I had a really weird dream last night about how I gained my weight back. I could not fit into any of my clothing and I could not do my usual workouts. Then Bob Harper appeared into my dream and was yelling at me! Bob was yelling at me! He told me he was disappointed and was upset I went back to my old ways. Then I woke up and at work I had a slice of cake. Ugh!

I do have worries in the back of my head just like everyone does. I worry that I will fall back into really bad habits and gain all my weight back. Snacking is my huge problem. I never seem to be satisfied and I keep telling myself I need to eat when I am not hungry. I have not been like this for a while but lately I am always snacking when I am not hungry. I used to be like this and this is making me nervous that I am going to go back to my old ways. I know I do not eat like I used to but I really need to stop snacking. I need to give up sweets and salty foods. I am addicted to chocolate, chips and pretzels. I do not need them! I need to stop.

This weekend I am visiting my good friend from college and I know unhealthy eating and drinking will happen. I want to make good choices with some things though. After this weekend I do not have anything huge happening until my birthday weekend when I celebrate my birthday and the beerfest in AC.I need to keep on track. I need to write and count my weight watchers points. I need to stop snacking. I need to keep working out like I am. I know I can do this.

Also, I am enjoying the fact I do not weigh myself every single week. Getting rid of the scale has truly helped me in the long run. When I weighed myself every week I was becoming miserable. I do not recommend this to everyone unless you lost a significant amount of weight. I am enjoying my long distance relationship with the scale. I need to get over my weight loss anxieties. I have been doing an amazing job so far. I need to get over the idea that I am going to slip and fail. I am not a failure. I have come this far and that is saying a lot. I need to take a deep breath and learn to control my anxieties.