Recap of 2014 on Fatso: A Weight Loss Blog

2014 is over after today. It was a great year. Many wonderful things happened that I got to share with family, Brian, and my friends. I did many things this year from traveling, doing new workouts, wearing new fashion, and even fitting in an amusement park ride for the first time since high school!


First I would like to address my confidences with my fashion. Before this year I never wore anything that showed off my curves or skin. I never wanted to show off myself. 2014 was different. I showed off curves and I showed off skin. I purchased my first bikini and did not care what people said when they saw me in it. I wore my first curve popping dress and danced the night away. I did not care what people said and I felt confident with myself. This confidence made me feel happier and I got so many comments!




Second I went to Mexico with Brian and it was a great experience. I did a lot of fitness things there. I road an actual bike for the first time in years. Yes, I spin a lot but I have not been on a non-stationary bike in years. It was nerve wrecking and exciting and I did it. It took me a while to get used to it and the kids in the bike tour laughed at me, but I did an awesome job. Also, Mexico was great for dancing! I went to their night club one night and danced so much I was sweating to death. I loved Mexico and I would go back again.


Third I started to do Insanity. Back in May my gym stopped doing kick boxing. I was upset, but they started to do an Insanity class. Now it is called “Insane Boot camp” so my gym does not get sued..go figure. Anyway, I was TERRIBLE at this class but I was determined to become strong with this class. I do it every Monday and Thursday. I thought this would be something I would never do. When the people at Rachael Ray called me they asked if I would be interested in doing Shaun.T’s workouts..Shaun.T was going to be on the show with Bob Harper. I said no, because I thought they wanted me to do it for the show! I never did before. Now I wish they would call me back..I would kick everyone’s butts in the stage crew, audience, and Rachael Ray with this work out now. No offense.


Fourth I picked up a new hobby. I learned how to crochet. Crocheting is a great hobby because I am so busy with my hands I do not have time to snack. I made my co-workers, students, and cousins gifts for Christmas. I enjoy crocheting and I hope to get back at it. It relaxes me and it keeps me from sitting around and stuffing my face.



Fifth I worked somewhere that helped me stay in shape and now eat. I worked at a local haunted attraction that kept me busy at night. The haunt kept my body moving so much. I would squat, jump, run, and do any types of movements to keep my body moving. I would drink a whole gallon of water. It was a lot on my body but it was awesome. Turned out I was good at it too.




Last, I finished my master’s thesis. Not only did I finish, but I passed. I am going to graduate on January 16th and earn my MA in English. This was the biggest accomplishment for 2014. When it was over I was left speechless and emotional. It was a big roller coaster in my life but I am so glad it is over. This accomplishment was great, but it killed my health habits. The stress destroyed me with eating and the work load killed my workout schedule. I only thought about my thesis. I did not want to do anything else but write and eat. I am so happy this is over because now I am free. Do not get me wrong, I am SO thrilled I finished my master’s thesis and I would do it again if I had to..but I would have to think of how to handle that differently. It stressed me out so bad.

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What I learned this year was weight loss is not easy and keeping it off is not easy. Habits can die quickly too if you do not keep up with it. I am upset with myself to let things get away from me. I have gained almost twenty pounds this year. To be positive, I did pick up new habits, learned to take risks with different classes, and gained confidence with my outfits. I do have many goals for 2015..


  • Regain my habits again. I will go to the gym at least five times a week. I will start using My Fitness Pal and count calories. I will not over eat, I will stop drinking so much, and I will gain my confidence again. This is number 1. I cannot do anything else until I regain my old habits. I am following Bob Harper’s The Skinny Rules and I am trying to relearn everything once again. I know I can do this again.20131019-100158.jpg
  • I want to do more 5K’s. I only did two and it was back in 2013. I did not do any this year. I want to train for them once again and start doing them in the spring. I really want to do The Color Run again and in October I want to do a zombie run. Not only do I want to do 5K’s..I would love to do a Mud Run. Who wants to get down and dirty with me?954708_688875344486018_1410605567_n
  • I want to lift more. I believe that muscle is better than being just skinny. I do not want to be skinny. I want to be strong.
  • I want to try new workouts. I have never done real yoga before. I am always afraid to try it at the gym. Not sure why. Not sure what other classes to try but I know they are out there.
  • I want to try a zip line course. My Mom is talking about taking me to on in Myrtle Beach in May and I really want to do this.
  • I would like to start riding a bike. I am not sure if my bike is in any type of condition to go for a ride. I should just test it but I was so busy I kept forgetting. I should try it now. 1429.
  • I am not sure if this is a goal for 2015 or just a lifetime goal..I really want to be certified to teach spin. I do not think I am there right now with what kind of shape I am in, but I am determined to get back into shape. I am also determined to be certified one day.
  • I want to write and update my blog more. I do not want to update this blog with so many “Transformation Tuesdays” this year. I want actual helpful blog posts. I want to post work out routines, recipes, and helpful advice. Always showing off my transformation is rather annoying..I think so anyway.image (8)
  • This could go along with a 5K or whatever..but I would love to do the three-day Susan G.Komen walk in Philadelphia. I really would love to do this.
  • Um…Ride a mechanical bull. Why has this not happened?


2014 has been a great year even though I lost my habits along the way. I do not regret 2014. It may have not been my year, but I did love every second of it.  I am ready for 2015 though. 2015 is going to make me strong, lean, and mean. I am ready for all the obstacles that will come along my way. My habits will come back, my confidence will be restored, and motivation will stay.

10817868_757125111032027_137307362_aI hope everyone had a wonderful 2014. I hope you all have a fantastic New Year. Get ready for January 1st.  2015 is going to be ours. Great ready everyone! It is not going down without a fight. Happy New Year!!



Bob Harper Helped Me Once..He Can Help Me Again


If you know me by now, April 2013 I met Bob Harper. Bob Harper is a fitness trainer who appears on The Biggest Loser. While I love that show, I enjoy his books and his workout DVDs that he has produced outside the brand. Do not get me wrong..When I was 232 lbs I started my workouts with The Biggest Loser brand, but now I want more of a challenge and Bob gives me that. Bob Harper is my fitness trainer. He may not be there in person, but he is my personal trainer.

Well, I let Bob get away from me. Yes, I feel terrible! Why did Bob get away from me? I really do not know..Maybe stress from work and college? Maybe events? Maybe overall stress? I really do not know how Bob got away from me. Maybe I grew bored of his DVDs? I own a couple but due to my graduate school budget..I am broke as a joke. Since I am broke, I can not afford new DVD workouts. I usually buy older ones because they are cheaper. You know what? That is not an excuse. I will actually hop onto Amazon  when I am done writing this blog. There is not excuse that I let Bob get away from me.


If Bob was here right now I wonder if he would be disappointed in me. At one point I was down 152 lbs. Over the course of the last couple months I gained weight. I thought it was muscle at first..and it was. I was doing insane boot camps at my local gym but then my work schedule changed and my masters thesis took over my life. Now all this is over and I am almost TWENTY POUNDS HEAVIER. I am not at the twenty pound mark but I am almost there. I am actually the same weight I was when I met Bob in April 2013.

Rachaelray11 I do not know if he would be disappointed, but I am disappointed in myself. None of my clothes fit me. Here I am during the Christmas season and I do not have a outfit I love because nothing fits. Again..graduate school has made me broke and I do not have the cash to buy new clothes. I do not want to buy new clothes though. The idea of buying a size up in clothes PISSES me off. It makes me angry to think I have to go above my size twelve.


I am also angry because all my healthy habits have gone out the window. I did relax from going into local convenient stores but I still feel as if my healthy habits are gone. I do not work out like I used to and my eating habits seem awful. What is bad about this is I am so aware of all this! I am so aware but I can not stop. I feel like this  needs to change.


While I was cleaning out my book shelf to make room for more books I found the copy of Bob Harper’s Jumpstart to Skinny. I opened it up and stared at the message that he wrote to me. I felt so disappointed in myself but this made me determined that I need to do something different. I worked too hard to keep being like this.

Sure..I kept thinking I PEAKED too soon. What do you mean? All this amazing stuff happened to me with my weight loss in less than a year when I was losing weight. I was recieving many followers on Tumblr  and I was on The Rachael Ray Show. I felt special and so much support. Bob said he would send me things and I thought I would receive the picture I was in with Rachael Ray, Bob Harper, and Shaun.T. That never happened.



Well, things now everything has fizzled. I barely have viewers on this blog. I am not noticed like I was with my weight loss. My Mom and brother who worked harder than me receives all the praise. Which is fine for they worked hard. I stopped receiving followers on my social network. I have peaked too soon. I think everything happened at once and now everything has finally settled in and my fifteen minutes of fame is over.

This does not mean I should change my habits and gain all my weight again. It is time to stop feeling sorry for myself. I am much more then this blog, my social network, and my silly appearance on The Rachael Ray show. I have taken a lot of time thinking about this, but Bob Harper helped me once..he is going to help me again.


I started rereading my copy of The Skinny Rules. As much as I love Jumpstart to Skinny, I believe his skinny rules is more helpful to recreate my healthy habits. As I am rereading I am finding myself going, “DUH!” with so many things. How could I forget to do this or that? So silly! If you have not read this book I really recommend it. I feel it is not like all those diet books out there. He is very clear with his rules. It is not jumbled up and confusing lingo. He is writing for people to help them understand how to lose weight. If you need a diet book for the new year then pick this up. It is one of his older books but the rules still apply!


I need to do Bob Harper workouts again! Once I am done this blog post I am going to do one of his workouts. I miss doing his workouts. I miss hearing my personal trainers voice! Yes, I know I have older DVDs and not the newer stuff. Maybe if I receive more money I will buy a newer one but right now I will stick with what I have. I love his workouts. He loves doing squats and squats makes your butt look good. Everyone wants a great look butt! I also love the routines. They are high impact but not really quick and in your face where you feel like you could blow your knee out. If you never tried his workouts I recommend starting with the Biggest Loser brand first. His regular workouts are a little intense.


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I am sorry I went astray Bob Harper. You helped me once and you can help me again. You are such a caring and inspirational person that it makes me keep on going to do what I need to do. Maybe one day I can do what you have done for millions of people. You are truly an inspiration for me. I do not want to disappoint. I want to motivate others and myself. I worked too hard to feel this way. I worked too hard to feel sorry for myself and defeated. I HAVE WORKED TOO HARD! It is time to get off my butt and workout! It is time to say NO to going out to eat, alcoholic drinks, candy, and over eating. These habits were my 232 lb self. I am sick of this. I WORKED TO DAMN HARD.

Bob Harper was barely in my year for 2014. 2015 will be different. Bob Harper is back in my life starting TODAY.





How to Survive Thanksgiving When Losing Weight

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Here we are again. The Holiday season. The time of year everyone goes absolutely crazy with eating. Well, I am with you this year. I have been struggling to keep track and eat clean lately. This holiday season frightens me. I need to stop thinking negatively. If we keep our minds in the right state and keep our confidence up we can accomplish anything.

The average person will consume over 4,500 on Thanksgiving. That is a lot! day will not ruin your life style. People are always asking me, “What do you do?” or “What did you do last year?” My Mom cooked the meal and we ate! Yes, we do things a little differently such as fat free gravy or more veggies but last year I still ate turkey, mash potatoes and pie. I still also consumed some adult beverages as well. The idea of one day should not stress you out. You should enjoy the day with your family and then the next day go back to normal. People have high anxiety of the holidays but I think one day is not bad. I always complain about the summer because there are more BBQ and events. Thanksgiving is only one day. ENJOY IT!


Thanksgiving is this Thursday and I feel I should give my list once again to keep us all on track!:

1.) Do not pile things onto your plate.

2.) Do not drown your food in gravy or butter

3.) Try to plan your plate accordingly. You should have more veggies on your plate and some protein/crabs.

4.) If you wish to go for seconds..Pick two/three things you loved and eat them. Why make a whole plate again? If you loved that turkey then have some more. If you loved Grandmom’s corn bread then go ahead. Do not pile everything on again.

5.) Drink water. If you wish to have adult beverages that is fine but drink water during the meal. Also, coffee or tea is great if offered.

6.) Small piece of dessert. Do not do seconds.

8.) Try to work out before your big meal. I am taking a morning spin class. 

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9.) Still eat before dinner. You do not want to go starving. It will make you eat more.

10.) Eat slowly. Take small bites. It will fill you up faster.

Enjoy the day!!! Just enjoy being with your family and be happy to even be alive. One day will not ruin everything. Get back on track on Friday. I promise it will be okay!


Happy Thanksgiving, everyone!!!


Scare The Scale: A DietBet Hosted by Brooke: Not On a Diet


I am excited to announce that I joined Brooke: Not on a Diet’s Dietbet called Scare the Scale. I encourage everyone to join in too!  Her Scare the Scale Dietbet  starts October 1st and ends the 28th. The last 48 hours of the bet is for weighing out. In order to join you have to put $25 into the pot. The biggest the pot the more you can win. In order to need to lose 4% of your starting weight in 28 days. Right now the pot is at $1,025! The more who join the more money one can win!!

Here is a video to explain this process better.


Brooke is truly an inspiring person. Her blog Brooke: Not On a Diet is a site I read rather frequently. She has lost 172 lbs on Weight Watchers! No gimmicks..just Weight Watchers and exercise! She actually reached out to me when I appeared on The Rachael Ray Show back in May 2013.  So if it was not for my appearance, I would have never met her and learned about her blog.

You may know Brooke yourself and you do not even realize it. A couple of months ago she had controversial story where Shape Magazine was not going to post a picture of her in a bikini even though the magazine wanted celebrate her weight loss. They just did not want to celebrate it in the way Brooke wanted to. It was insane!

Brooke is very sweet and inspirational. Her blog is an amazing read. I suggest you follow Brooke: Not On a Diet right away!

Anyway, I believe you should all join Scare The Scale Dietbet! I think this is the motivation I need to really kick October in the butt with my weight loss. Yes, it costs $25 but is that not more motivation to lose weight to try and get the money back or even more? So please join! Lets make this pot bigger! We are all in this together. Have a great weekend!


Music + Workout = Important to Me


I do not know everyone else, but music is highly important to me when working out. Without my headphones and my iPod I can not even be bothered working out. Usually gyms play music I can not stand because they have to please everyone who works out there. A class also has good music for me to workout to. I use to take this spin class on Mondays but I had to stop. I could not stand the music. I am 25 years old and the music was a little old fashion for my taste. Granted, Edith next to me loved it is really hard to please everyone. I am just saying music is really important to me with my workouts. It makes time go faster.


Not only this, but I do not want to hear anything out of the norm at the gym. For example..myself. I do not want to hear the loud breathing I am creating or the machine. I also do not want to hear others. For example..there is a guy I run into sometimes..and he sings at the top of his lungs the music he is listening to on his really annoys me. I feel like if I wear my headphones and listen to my music then I escape the world around me. I feel like it is just me in the gym and that is what I want. I do not want to feel like I am in a crowded space while singing Larry is next to me. I want to enjoy my workout and music helps me.


I thought I would share my workout playlist with you. If you care to share yours then comment below. I know everyone’s music taste is different but sometimes when you see a list it will open you up to knew song choices to workout to.

– A Sky Full of Stars – Coldplay

-American Boys – Halestorm

-Artificial Sweetener – No Doubt

– Bang Bang – Jesse J. Ariana Grande & Nicki Minaj

– Bathwater – No Doubt

– Billie Jean – Micahel Jackson

– Bomb Intro/Pass That Dutch – Missy Elliott

-Daughters of Darkness – Halestorm

-Do What U Want – Lady Gaga

-Drive By – Train

-Excuse Me Mr. – No Doubt

-For Your Entertainment – Adam Lambert

– Freak Like Me – Halestorm

-Freak on a Leash – Korn featuring Amy Lee

– Gorilla – Bruno Mars

– Heaven Knows – The Pretty Reckless

– Help is on the Way – Rise Against

– Hold On – Alabama Shakes

– I Miss the Misery – Halestorm

– Let It Go – Idina Menzel (Frozen)

– Lights and Sound – Yellowcard

– Lose Control – Missy Elliot

– Lose Yourself – Eminem

– Love Runs Out – OneRepublic

-Make Me Wanna Die – The Pretty Reckless

– Mermaid – Train

-Never Close Our Eyes – Adam Lambert

-New Divide -Linkin Park

-Out of the Black – Royal Blood

-Royals – Lorde

-Say You’ll Be There – Spice Girls

-She Hates Me – Puddle of Mudd

-Smooth Criminal – Michael Jackson

-Sparkling Diamonds – Moulin Rouge

-Spice Up Your Life – Spice Girls

-Spiderwebs -No Doubt

-Team – Lorde

– Wannabe – Spice Girls

-Wooble – V.I.C

-Work – Lil Jon

-50 Ways to Say Goodbye – Train


My music is sort of all over the place because it is in ABC order but I hope to have it down so it is warm up, working out, intense, and cool down. I love music. What do you all think about working out with music? Is it a must? What do you listen to?



Welcome September : Getting Back on Track


Well it is September and this summer went really quick. If you do not know me I work at a elementary school in a disabled preschool and I go to graduate school for my MA in English. This year at work I am a 1:1 with a three year old autistic boy and I am very excited for that. Also, this is my last semester of graduate school! I am very excited for this new school year because being back on a set schedule will help me lose weight and keep track of my health. When I was at home doing nothing, I was finding myself snacking more than I should. I need a set schedule.


This semester is dedicated to nothing but my master’s thesis. It will be a rough and I hope that the stress does not get to me. I do have a good amount of pages right I hope that things will go smoothly.


I got a second job. If you live in the New Jersey or Pennsylvania area I will be working at Night of Terror . I am super excited! Tuesday I find out where I am working. This is going to be my first acting gig in six years. I am super pumped and I know this will help me stay active rather than snack all night.


SO….I am getting back on track because my graduation is coming in January. My graduation for high school and BA makes me hate those pictures so much. Sure, you do not look like a sexy goddess in a cap and gown, but the way I feel makes me look awful. In high school I felt like I looked like a white marshmallow. I hated it so much!


What really wanted me to make a change and lose weight was my graduation for my BA. The gown was given to you by height. I should have gone longer because maybe the gown would have fit a little better. The gown was so tight on me. To this day I do not know if I screwed up or if the school I went to had crappy gowns..because their gowns were not like my brother’s graduation from college gowns. Anyway, I hated how I look. I felt huge and this is why I wanted to lose weight. The theme was a big topic when I was on The Rachael Ray Show.

You can watch the clip here.


Enough of this negative talk! Breath out the negativity and breath in the positivity! I must be positive. I will be positive, because being negative will not fix your problems. If you want have to work for it. So, if I want to look awesome for my MA graduation I need to work for it. Here is what I am going to do and if you wish to look awesome for a wedding, family function, reunion, graduation, or whatever..follow me!!



Track everything you put into your body. If you write down everything you eat and drink then you can see where you went wrong if you stayed the same or gained weight. I do Weight this really helps me for tracking. You should know what you are eating and how much.


I am a fitness nut but you should work out at least four times a week. Granted, I workout five-six times but it is my favorite hobby. Workout for a hour at the most. You may feel like you do not have time, but make time. Do you get a lunch break at work? Go for a walk. Wake up earlier or try to work out after work. Fitness is important.


Time Management is so important and I always to to manage my sleep. I try to get 8 hours a night. Some of my graduate friends think I am crazy because I do not do my work all through the night. I think they are crazy because I need my sleep. Try to get lots of sleep because it actually helps you lose weight because your body needs it.


Drink lots of water. Cut out the soda. If you drink a lot of water then you feel full and you will not snack. Also, water flushes everything out of your system.


Finally, keep yourself busy. I have a busy semester ahead of me and this will help me from snacking. Granted, you should pack lunches rather than go get fast food. FAST FOOD is only convenient..there is nothing else great about it. It burns a hole in your wallet, the food makes you feel sluggish, and it is just awful for you. Pack your own meals! But..if you keep busy and pack your own meals then you will not be a couch potatoes and eat a whole box of cookies in one sitting.


I am excited for this semester. I am ready for it!


My Trip to Mexico


Hello everyone! I am back from my wonderful trip to Mexico. Brian and I loved our trip. Mexico is an awesome place to visit. We stayed in Rivera Maya close to Playa Del Carmen. We stayed at the Iberostar at the beach side. Iberostar was such a great resort! I HIGHLY recommend staying at an Iberostar if you go away to Mexico or any Caribbean destination. The price Brian and I paid for all the stuff we got for our money was pretty awesome. We had a great time in Jamaica last year, but we paid around the same price and all the things we got here at the Iberostar, was ten times more.


So, I wrote about how I wanted to be more active on this vacation. I totally was more active on this vacation for sure! The main thing about this resort is how HUGE it is. I wore my Weight Watchers pedometer and I averaged 18,000 to 20,000 in steps a day. We did so much walking. I did not mind the walking though. I love to walk. If I was 200 plus pounds then it would be awful! I could not imagine walking this resort out of shape. I loved the walking though.


I did more activities on this trip as well. I did the bike tour which was pretty awesome. I have not been on an actual bike in years. I usually ride a stationary bike at the gym. The bike tour was us riding our bike all around the resort and looking at the different hotel lobbies. This resort has five different hotels. So to ride on a bike was an eye opener to see just how HUGE this place was. I loved riding the bike though. I kept up with the kids in our group which was cool. I did aqua aerobics  as well, which was sort of weird but fun. Also, I did ALOT of dancing!


Not only did you do a lot of dancing at the pool/pool bar but they have a night club at this resort. On Wednesday I went to their boogie night which was awesome! I am not into 70’s music at all  but when you are drinking a little bit and you actually know the music it was a lot of fun. I was dancing all around and totally got an amazing workout from all the dancing. Brian did not make it for this night, but I got to dance with their “Star Friends” and they were a lot of fun.


So, I did eat and drink a lot on this vacation but I think it was fine because I was more active. The resort does have A LOT of healthy options too. I ate so much fruit because the fruit was so good. My down fall with food was the guacamole at the resort. Brian claimed I was going to turn into an avocado with how much I was eating. Guacamole is sooo high in fat, but good fat..but the Weight Watcher points is crazy. I was piling the stuff on my plate. I loved the stuff!

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Brian and I had an amazing time. We both had a great and relaxing vacation. I am not sure how he did with his weight, but I only gained 6 lbs which is not bad at all. Like I said, I think we were so active that all the eating and drinking really did not hurt us. I had a ball at the Iberostar. I can not wait to go again. I know Brian feels the same way.


Now it is back to real life. I have started to write down and count points again. The good thing about being back is I am not hungry at all. I need to get back to the gym, but I am pretty lazy today. I am not sure if I am going today, but tomorrow I do plan on going to Zumba with my Mom in the morning. I need to get back to my original weight for my neighbors wedding in September. Other than that, I want to lose more weight for my graduation in January. Anyway, I hope everyone had a great week while I was gone. It is time to be back to normal and go on with reality.