Progress Not Perfection


I did Weigh myself this Friday and ironically I did lose 1 pound but I am still not at the weight I was at in July though. As soon as I was done I wrote this on a sticky note and placed it on my scale. Technically Dec 6 is not a month but I decided to maybe try and weigh myself the first Friday of every month. I will see what will happen with this of course. It seems just like with everything..weight loss is a trial and error and a hypothesis of random stuff.

meee If you live under a rock or you have just found my is important to know that I am a huge Bob Harper fan. I watch the Biggest Loser every week and I am always doing his work out dvds. Everyone loves Jillian or Shaun.T from Insanity..Well, I am a Harper fan. Team Bob all the way! It is ironic that my brother took this picture of me doing one of his DVDs and I am wearing blue. I do not joke around. Anyway, I was watching. The Biggest Loser on Tuesday. It was the Halloween episode. Not too into the whole eating a lot of candy segment because I felt that it was cruel…an then I thought that they would throw a pie in there and of course they did! It makes for good TV. Anyway, the part that struck me with this episode was when the blue team went to see Bob and all the Cross Fit ladies were there. I these women look fierce and so in shape. They look awesome. What registered with me was the fact that these ladies are not 130 lbs. They stated they were around 160. This blew me away. Muscle…Muscle makes you look awesome.

bob That is what that segment was about.  Holley is trying to learn that she is trying to burn the fat away and not the muscle. She still can be strong. Well, I want to be strong too. I do not want to weigh 130 lbs and look skinny and weak. I do not want to be weak but strong. So, why keep worrying about this number on the scale? I want progress and not perfection. I want to be healthy rather than look sickly. This has opened my eyes so much and I feel that I have had a..”Well, DUH Jackie!” moment. I am so worried about losing this weight and having this certain number and it should not be about that. No offense to my brother and my Mom but they lost a lot of weight but they do not look strong to me. The just look skinny. Nothing is wrong with that but I do not want to just look skinny. I want to look strong. Creating muscle will do this. Now, I am not saying I am going to start lifting  until I am so jacked. I still want to look like a woman and according to the picture above..They look like women to me. They look like strong incredible women.

 So, I am going to stick to what I am doing. I do need to learn to not give in to snacking. I am having a problem with doing this lately. I will work my ass off all day and then I will start eating something stupid like cereal out of the box or chips. I need to stop doing this. I can still live though. Yesterday, I did so bad. I worked my ass off though with my work outs. We went to this awesome bar in Philadelphia called Barcade and they have craft beers and awesome food. I should have gone for the healthy choice but how can you say no to a pulled pork and Mac & cheese sandwich. I paid for it today but I worked my ass off again with my work out. So, I can still live..but I want to live for a purpose rather than sitting on my couch and munch away on cereal or chips on my couch.

 Even though the scale is not showing me progress I know the progress is there. I am noticing a difference every week as I keep working out and trying to be healthier. My confidence is better too. Yesterday I went clothes shopping and created this awesome outfit. I hated wearing sweaters in the past but now I feel confident and awesome in them. Knowing that I have worked hard for what I looked like now is just a great reward. The progress is there. I may not look perfect but who does? I am happy with how I look and that is all that matters. friday


Alright, I am done for now. I have pushed back my graduate studies long enough. Just an update my professor liked my Weight-Watchers paper topic but I am under the impression that he thinks I am going to take a negative approach with the topic. I am not. So, we will see how this goes.



No Scale November?

The idea of not using a scale for a whole month makes me nervous. My Mom even suggests that this maybe not the best idea because it is not the Weight Watcher program cause you should weigh in once a week unless you reached goal. I am not a Weight Watcher member so it is not a big deal..but what if I gain weight because I did not step on the scale? What if I am worse off?
Lately the scale has been taking over my entire life. It stinks. I am always worrying about it. Maybe because I have been at a stand still since July. So if I cut the scale will things be better or worse? What are your thoughts? I would love feed back.


So since doing Bob Harper’s DVD I have noticed change in my I decided to take this picture as a before picture. At the end of the month I will take another picture.
Also, awesome news..the back flab I have is almost gone! My love handles are almost gone and I am so excited. It is nice to see a change when you are working hard. This goes back to my scale problem..even though the number is staying still I am still seeing results. So this is why I am not sure if I should stay away from the scale for a while.



I love my home trainer Bob Harper. Sweat for days and feeling strong. I feel so good right now.


SweatUSA in AC

Before I go into detail about SweatUSA I want to just share that this is my 30th post and I have had 2,000 views on this blog. Thank you everyone for making this blog worth wild for me. I am writing for you guys. Sure, writing helps me relax and when I express myself my stress level goes down..but I really blog about my weight loss journey because I want to help others. I learned how to control my eating habits and how to move my body. I used to be a lazy girl who would eat far too much food. This transformation did not happen over night and I feel it is important to write about this. Why hide or keep my transformation a secret? Anyone can do this and I want to help others get to that transformation.

I was so mad today because my spinning class was canceled. Last minute if I may add. So I went to Planet Fitness. Guys, I have been so bad. I have not been to Planet Fitness in a month. I am surprised when I walked in an alarm did not go off. No one cared though. People always give me slack about Planet Fitness. I have even been told by people that you do not lose weight when you go to Planet Fitness. Well, it has almost been a year since I joined and I have lost 60 lbs since I joined. So that fact is not true. Also, if you are on a budget this place is great. $10 a month is great. You can not go wrong. I think the yearly due is $30 or something but I am not sure because I have no paid it yet. Next month.  I like going to Planet Fitness because I can do what I want when I want to. Sure, classes would be cool but that is why I took up spinning. They are open 24 hours and when you are in a jam like I was today you can just stop by.



Guys, I am excited to announce that this girl got paid yesterday and she bought her ticket to SweatUSA in Atlantic City!!! Way to wait until the last second, right? It is next Saturday and I am very excited about it. The expo is two days but rooms in AC is crazy and the drive is not the I am only going one day. I had to pick which day which was hard. I could go Saturday and see Jillian Michaels or Sunday and see Shaun.T from Insanity. Sorry Shaun.T, I picked Saturday because I am a huge Biggest Loser fan. Plus, I have seen Shaun.T in person when I was on the Rachael Ray Show. So, I am excited to go and get to hear Jillian Michaels address. I bought the regular expo pass because I do not have the money to work out with Jillian Michaels. It was $100 plus tax it would have been $110 most likely. Well, I needed to take in account of gas, parking, and anything else I want at the expo. So I will just listen to Jillian Michaels which is pretty awesome and I bet will be inspiring.

I am very excited about going. I am going alone which is different because I never been to a convention by myself. If you are going to be there and you see me on Saturday you can come up to me. I promise I do not bite. I am a pretty friendly person. I do get tongue tied a lot but that is because my brain works faster then my mouth. So if you do see me..say hello! I am very excited. I hope to do some fitness classes and get fresh ideas..and new inspiration because I am running low. I am excited!