Do Not Let Blue Monday Defeat You!

Quick post. Today is Blue Monday. What does this mean? The third Monday of January is when people are the most depressed because they did not stick to their New Year revolutions like they wished. Most people give up and go back to their old ways. If this is you then do not give in! It takes a whole month to get used to new habits and routines. Keep going! I know you all can do it. So not let Blue Monday defeat you!



If I Wrote a Book..


I have a lot of time on my hands. Mainly because I graduated and my hours were cut at work and I am only part time now. I am looking and I am trying to be certified for substitute teaching but it could take a month. What do I do? Sure..I revised my resume and cover letters. I am applying to every university and community college..but what do I do that is fun?

What if I wrote a book? I have been debating about this for a while. Only problem is I do not want the book to only be about me. Who would buy a biographical book of just myself? If I do this who would buy a book with research and statistics in it? Boring..


I look to you all. What would you want to read? If you were to stop into a Barns and Noble and saw my book what would you want? Would it be in the fiction section and be about a girl growing up in obesity? Would it be in the nonfiction section? Would it talk about me and my struggles? Would it be in the weight loss section? Biographical and helpful information?

Thoughts? Just a idea..

My Twin Brother and his Weight Loss


I like to dedicate this post to my twin brother Michael. My brother has lost over 100 lbs. He is a true inspiration to me because he has lost so much weight and he has managed to keep it over and maintain. He is so focused. You never see him snack and he is so determined to stay within his Weight Watcher points.

I dedicate this post to him because even though he has succeed in this amazing life changing experience, he still struggles with something else. My brother has graduated college with a radio, TV, and film degree back in 2012 and has still not gotten a job in his field. He has had jobs but nothing in his career. We feel it is because we live in New Jersey and not near California where most of the jobs are.

He has a Go Fund Me account to raise money so he can live in LA, California. He has the money to go but he does not have the money to live there. His account has reached last the $100 mark.

I am not demanding anyone to donated or anything. Just suggesting. As his twin sister I am just concerned and want him to succeed. I just want him to catch a break. He has done such an amazing job losing all this weight and I want him to succeed in only parts of his life.

So please take the time to look at his Go Fund Me account. Also, my brother has a blog that deals with movies and reviews them.

Thank you!


InBody Reading: 2015 Will Be Different

So at my gym which is Healthtrax, they have a machine called the InBody. The machine does more then tell me my weight. It tells me everything else. I am not too happy by the results.


First of all I am 171 lbs. That upsets me because it is one pound away from gaining 20 lbs all together. Also my body fat mass is 70.8 which a falls past should fall around 160.


Things in black is past my level. My legs are awesome. They are the same as well. Arms and trunk need work. The trunk is always the hardest part to work out for a woman though.


What made me really nervous is the visceral fat. I am at level 15. I am on the high end of it. The visceral fat is bad fat. It is the fat around your organs.

So..they is just numbers on a page but still eye openers. I need to make a change with things this year. I have been doing pretty well so far since using My Fitness Pal. I have been staying within my calories and I have been working out as much as I can. I think I have been doing well. I think my workouts have been great but my diet was really bad.

I told Brian I do not want to go out to eat all the time and I want to stop drinking. Soda is also getting cut out of diet. I just need to keep doing the right things and stay on track.

That is all anyone can do.


Recap of 2014 on Fatso: A Weight Loss Blog

2014 is over after today. It was a great year. Many wonderful things happened that I got to share with family, Brian, and my friends. I did many things this year from traveling, doing new workouts, wearing new fashion, and even fitting in an amusement park ride for the first time since high school!


First I would like to address my confidences with my fashion. Before this year I never wore anything that showed off my curves or skin. I never wanted to show off myself. 2014 was different. I showed off curves and I showed off skin. I purchased my first bikini and did not care what people said when they saw me in it. I wore my first curve popping dress and danced the night away. I did not care what people said and I felt confident with myself. This confidence made me feel happier and I got so many comments!




Second I went to Mexico with Brian and it was a great experience. I did a lot of fitness things there. I road an actual bike for the first time in years. Yes, I spin a lot but I have not been on a non-stationary bike in years. It was nerve wrecking and exciting and I did it. It took me a while to get used to it and the kids in the bike tour laughed at me, but I did an awesome job. Also, Mexico was great for dancing! I went to their night club one night and danced so much I was sweating to death. I loved Mexico and I would go back again.


Third I started to do Insanity. Back in May my gym stopped doing kick boxing. I was upset, but they started to do an Insanity class. Now it is called “Insane Boot camp” so my gym does not get sued..go figure. Anyway, I was TERRIBLE at this class but I was determined to become strong with this class. I do it every Monday and Thursday. I thought this would be something I would never do. When the people at Rachael Ray called me they asked if I would be interested in doing Shaun.T’s workouts..Shaun.T was going to be on the show with Bob Harper. I said no, because I thought they wanted me to do it for the show! I never did before. Now I wish they would call me back..I would kick everyone’s butts in the stage crew, audience, and Rachael Ray with this work out now. No offense.


Fourth I picked up a new hobby. I learned how to crochet. Crocheting is a great hobby because I am so busy with my hands I do not have time to snack. I made my co-workers, students, and cousins gifts for Christmas. I enjoy crocheting and I hope to get back at it. It relaxes me and it keeps me from sitting around and stuffing my face.



Fifth I worked somewhere that helped me stay in shape and now eat. I worked at a local haunted attraction that kept me busy at night. The haunt kept my body moving so much. I would squat, jump, run, and do any types of movements to keep my body moving. I would drink a whole gallon of water. It was a lot on my body but it was awesome. Turned out I was good at it too.




Last, I finished my master’s thesis. Not only did I finish, but I passed. I am going to graduate on January 16th and earn my MA in English. This was the biggest accomplishment for 2014. When it was over I was left speechless and emotional. It was a big roller coaster in my life but I am so glad it is over. This accomplishment was great, but it killed my health habits. The stress destroyed me with eating and the work load killed my workout schedule. I only thought about my thesis. I did not want to do anything else but write and eat. I am so happy this is over because now I am free. Do not get me wrong, I am SO thrilled I finished my master’s thesis and I would do it again if I had to..but I would have to think of how to handle that differently. It stressed me out so bad.

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What I learned this year was weight loss is not easy and keeping it off is not easy. Habits can die quickly too if you do not keep up with it. I am upset with myself to let things get away from me. I have gained almost twenty pounds this year. To be positive, I did pick up new habits, learned to take risks with different classes, and gained confidence with my outfits. I do have many goals for 2015..


  • Regain my habits again. I will go to the gym at least five times a week. I will start using My Fitness Pal and count calories. I will not over eat, I will stop drinking so much, and I will gain my confidence again. This is number 1. I cannot do anything else until I regain my old habits. I am following Bob Harper’s The Skinny Rules and I am trying to relearn everything once again. I know I can do this again.20131019-100158.jpg
  • I want to do more 5K’s. I only did two and it was back in 2013. I did not do any this year. I want to train for them once again and start doing them in the spring. I really want to do The Color Run again and in October I want to do a zombie run. Not only do I want to do 5K’s..I would love to do a Mud Run. Who wants to get down and dirty with me?954708_688875344486018_1410605567_n
  • I want to lift more. I believe that muscle is better than being just skinny. I do not want to be skinny. I want to be strong.
  • I want to try new workouts. I have never done real yoga before. I am always afraid to try it at the gym. Not sure why. Not sure what other classes to try but I know they are out there.
  • I want to try a zip line course. My Mom is talking about taking me to on in Myrtle Beach in May and I really want to do this.
  • I would like to start riding a bike. I am not sure if my bike is in any type of condition to go for a ride. I should just test it but I was so busy I kept forgetting. I should try it now. 1429.
  • I am not sure if this is a goal for 2015 or just a lifetime goal..I really want to be certified to teach spin. I do not think I am there right now with what kind of shape I am in, but I am determined to get back into shape. I am also determined to be certified one day.
  • I want to write and update my blog more. I do not want to update this blog with so many “Transformation Tuesdays” this year. I want actual helpful blog posts. I want to post work out routines, recipes, and helpful advice. Always showing off my transformation is rather annoying..I think so anyway.image (8)
  • This could go along with a 5K or whatever..but I would love to do the three-day Susan G.Komen walk in Philadelphia. I really would love to do this.
  • Um…Ride a mechanical bull. Why has this not happened?


2014 has been a great year even though I lost my habits along the way. I do not regret 2014. It may have not been my year, but I did love every second of it.  I am ready for 2015 though. 2015 is going to make me strong, lean, and mean. I am ready for all the obstacles that will come along my way. My habits will come back, my confidence will be restored, and motivation will stay.

10817868_757125111032027_137307362_aI hope everyone had a wonderful 2014. I hope you all have a fantastic New Year. Get ready for January 1st.  2015 is going to be ours. Great ready everyone! It is not going down without a fight. Happy New Year!!



Bob Harper Helped Me Once..He Can Help Me Again


If you know me by now, April 2013 I met Bob Harper. Bob Harper is a fitness trainer who appears on The Biggest Loser. While I love that show, I enjoy his books and his workout DVDs that he has produced outside the brand. Do not get me wrong..When I was 232 lbs I started my workouts with The Biggest Loser brand, but now I want more of a challenge and Bob gives me that. Bob Harper is my fitness trainer. He may not be there in person, but he is my personal trainer.

Well, I let Bob get away from me. Yes, I feel terrible! Why did Bob get away from me? I really do not know..Maybe stress from work and college? Maybe events? Maybe overall stress? I really do not know how Bob got away from me. Maybe I grew bored of his DVDs? I own a couple but due to my graduate school budget..I am broke as a joke. Since I am broke, I can not afford new DVD workouts. I usually buy older ones because they are cheaper. You know what? That is not an excuse. I will actually hop onto Amazon  when I am done writing this blog. There is not excuse that I let Bob get away from me.


If Bob was here right now I wonder if he would be disappointed in me. At one point I was down 152 lbs. Over the course of the last couple months I gained weight. I thought it was muscle at first..and it was. I was doing insane boot camps at my local gym but then my work schedule changed and my masters thesis took over my life. Now all this is over and I am almost TWENTY POUNDS HEAVIER. I am not at the twenty pound mark but I am almost there. I am actually the same weight I was when I met Bob in April 2013.

Rachaelray11 I do not know if he would be disappointed, but I am disappointed in myself. None of my clothes fit me. Here I am during the Christmas season and I do not have a outfit I love because nothing fits. Again..graduate school has made me broke and I do not have the cash to buy new clothes. I do not want to buy new clothes though. The idea of buying a size up in clothes PISSES me off. It makes me angry to think I have to go above my size twelve.


I am also angry because all my healthy habits have gone out the window. I did relax from going into local convenient stores but I still feel as if my healthy habits are gone. I do not work out like I used to and my eating habits seem awful. What is bad about this is I am so aware of all this! I am so aware but I can not stop. I feel like this  needs to change.


While I was cleaning out my book shelf to make room for more books I found the copy of Bob Harper’s Jumpstart to Skinny. I opened it up and stared at the message that he wrote to me. I felt so disappointed in myself but this made me determined that I need to do something different. I worked too hard to keep being like this.

Sure..I kept thinking I PEAKED too soon. What do you mean? All this amazing stuff happened to me with my weight loss in less than a year when I was losing weight. I was recieving many followers on Tumblr  and I was on The Rachael Ray Show. I felt special and so much support. Bob said he would send me things and I thought I would receive the picture I was in with Rachael Ray, Bob Harper, and Shaun.T. That never happened.



Well, things now everything has fizzled. I barely have viewers on this blog. I am not noticed like I was with my weight loss. My Mom and brother who worked harder than me receives all the praise. Which is fine for they worked hard. I stopped receiving followers on my social network. I have peaked too soon. I think everything happened at once and now everything has finally settled in and my fifteen minutes of fame is over.

This does not mean I should change my habits and gain all my weight again. It is time to stop feeling sorry for myself. I am much more then this blog, my social network, and my silly appearance on The Rachael Ray show. I have taken a lot of time thinking about this, but Bob Harper helped me once..he is going to help me again.


I started rereading my copy of The Skinny Rules. As much as I love Jumpstart to Skinny, I believe his skinny rules is more helpful to recreate my healthy habits. As I am rereading I am finding myself going, “DUH!” with so many things. How could I forget to do this or that? So silly! If you have not read this book I really recommend it. I feel it is not like all those diet books out there. He is very clear with his rules. It is not jumbled up and confusing lingo. He is writing for people to help them understand how to lose weight. If you need a diet book for the new year then pick this up. It is one of his older books but the rules still apply!


I need to do Bob Harper workouts again! Once I am done this blog post I am going to do one of his workouts. I miss doing his workouts. I miss hearing my personal trainers voice! Yes, I know I have older DVDs and not the newer stuff. Maybe if I receive more money I will buy a newer one but right now I will stick with what I have. I love his workouts. He loves doing squats and squats makes your butt look good. Everyone wants a great look butt! I also love the routines. They are high impact but not really quick and in your face where you feel like you could blow your knee out. If you never tried his workouts I recommend starting with the Biggest Loser brand first. His regular workouts are a little intense.


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I am sorry I went astray Bob Harper. You helped me once and you can help me again. You are such a caring and inspirational person that it makes me keep on going to do what I need to do. Maybe one day I can do what you have done for millions of people. You are truly an inspiration for me. I do not want to disappoint. I want to motivate others and myself. I worked too hard to feel this way. I worked too hard to feel sorry for myself and defeated. I HAVE WORKED TOO HARD! It is time to get off my butt and workout! It is time to say NO to going out to eat, alcoholic drinks, candy, and over eating. These habits were my 232 lb self. I am sick of this. I WORKED TO DAMN HARD.

Bob Harper was barely in my year for 2014. 2015 will be different. Bob Harper is back in my life starting TODAY.





How to Survive Thanksgiving When Losing Weight

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Here we are again. The Holiday season. The time of year everyone goes absolutely crazy with eating. Well, I am with you this year. I have been struggling to keep track and eat clean lately. This holiday season frightens me. I need to stop thinking negatively. If we keep our minds in the right state and keep our confidence up we can accomplish anything.

The average person will consume over 4,500 on Thanksgiving. That is a lot! day will not ruin your life style. People are always asking me, “What do you do?” or “What did you do last year?” My Mom cooked the meal and we ate! Yes, we do things a little differently such as fat free gravy or more veggies but last year I still ate turkey, mash potatoes and pie. I still also consumed some adult beverages as well. The idea of one day should not stress you out. You should enjoy the day with your family and then the next day go back to normal. People have high anxiety of the holidays but I think one day is not bad. I always complain about the summer because there are more BBQ and events. Thanksgiving is only one day. ENJOY IT!


Thanksgiving is this Thursday and I feel I should give my list once again to keep us all on track!:

1.) Do not pile things onto your plate.

2.) Do not drown your food in gravy or butter

3.) Try to plan your plate accordingly. You should have more veggies on your plate and some protein/crabs.

4.) If you wish to go for seconds..Pick two/three things you loved and eat them. Why make a whole plate again? If you loved that turkey then have some more. If you loved Grandmom’s corn bread then go ahead. Do not pile everything on again.

5.) Drink water. If you wish to have adult beverages that is fine but drink water during the meal. Also, coffee or tea is great if offered.

6.) Small piece of dessert. Do not do seconds.

8.) Try to work out before your big meal. I am taking a morning spin class. 

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9.) Still eat before dinner. You do not want to go starving. It will make you eat more.

10.) Eat slowly. Take small bites. It will fill you up faster.

Enjoy the day!!! Just enjoy being with your family and be happy to even be alive. One day will not ruin everything. Get back on track on Friday. I promise it will be okay!


Happy Thanksgiving, everyone!!!