Recap of 2014 on Fatso: A Weight Loss Blog

2014 is over after today. It was a great year. Many wonderful things happened that I got to share with family, Brian, and my friends. I did many things this year from traveling, doing new workouts, wearing new fashion, and even fitting in an amusement park ride for the first time since high school!


First I would like to address my confidences with my fashion. Before this year I never wore anything that showed off my curves or skin. I never wanted to show off myself. 2014 was different. I showed off curves and I showed off skin. I purchased my first bikini and did not care what people said when they saw me in it. I wore my first curve popping dress and danced the night away. I did not care what people said and I felt confident with myself. This confidence made me feel happier and I got so many comments!




Second I went to Mexico with Brian and it was a great experience. I did a lot of fitness things there. I road an actual bike for the first time in years. Yes, I spin a lot but I have not been on a non-stationary bike in years. It was nerve wrecking and exciting and I did it. It took me a while to get used to it and the kids in the bike tour laughed at me, but I did an awesome job. Also, Mexico was great for dancing! I went to their night club one night and danced so much I was sweating to death. I loved Mexico and I would go back again.


Third I started to do Insanity. Back in May my gym stopped doing kick boxing. I was upset, but they started to do an Insanity class. Now it is called “Insane Boot camp” so my gym does not get sued..go figure. Anyway, I was TERRIBLE at this class but I was determined to become strong with this class. I do it every Monday and Thursday. I thought this would be something I would never do. When the people at Rachael Ray called me they asked if I would be interested in doing Shaun.T’s workouts..Shaun.T was going to be on the show with Bob Harper. I said no, because I thought they wanted me to do it for the show! I never did before. Now I wish they would call me back..I would kick everyone’s butts in the stage crew, audience, and Rachael Ray with this work out now. No offense.


Fourth I picked up a new hobby. I learned how to crochet. Crocheting is a great hobby because I am so busy with my hands I do not have time to snack. I made my co-workers, students, and cousins gifts for Christmas. I enjoy crocheting and I hope to get back at it. It relaxes me and it keeps me from sitting around and stuffing my face.



Fifth I worked somewhere that helped me stay in shape and now eat. I worked at a local haunted attraction that kept me busy at night. The haunt kept my body moving so much. I would squat, jump, run, and do any types of movements to keep my body moving. I would drink a whole gallon of water. It was a lot on my body but it was awesome. Turned out I was good at it too.




Last, I finished my master’s thesis. Not only did I finish, but I passed. I am going to graduate on January 16th and earn my MA in English. This was the biggest accomplishment for 2014. When it was over I was left speechless and emotional. It was a big roller coaster in my life but I am so glad it is over. This accomplishment was great, but it killed my health habits. The stress destroyed me with eating and the work load killed my workout schedule. I only thought about my thesis. I did not want to do anything else but write and eat. I am so happy this is over because now I am free. Do not get me wrong, I am SO thrilled I finished my master’s thesis and I would do it again if I had to..but I would have to think of how to handle that differently. It stressed me out so bad.

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What I learned this year was weight loss is not easy and keeping it off is not easy. Habits can die quickly too if you do not keep up with it. I am upset with myself to let things get away from me. I have gained almost twenty pounds this year. To be positive, I did pick up new habits, learned to take risks with different classes, and gained confidence with my outfits. I do have many goals for 2015..


  • Regain my habits again. I will go to the gym at least five times a week. I will start using My Fitness Pal and count calories. I will not over eat, I will stop drinking so much, and I will gain my confidence again. This is number 1. I cannot do anything else until I regain my old habits. I am following Bob Harper’s The Skinny Rules and I am trying to relearn everything once again. I know I can do this again.20131019-100158.jpg
  • I want to do more 5K’s. I only did two and it was back in 2013. I did not do any this year. I want to train for them once again and start doing them in the spring. I really want to do The Color Run again and in October I want to do a zombie run. Not only do I want to do 5K’s..I would love to do a Mud Run. Who wants to get down and dirty with me?954708_688875344486018_1410605567_n
  • I want to lift more. I believe that muscle is better than being just skinny. I do not want to be skinny. I want to be strong.
  • I want to try new workouts. I have never done real yoga before. I am always afraid to try it at the gym. Not sure why. Not sure what other classes to try but I know they are out there.
  • I want to try a zip line course. My Mom is talking about taking me to on in Myrtle Beach in May and I really want to do this.
  • I would like to start riding a bike. I am not sure if my bike is in any type of condition to go for a ride. I should just test it but I was so busy I kept forgetting. I should try it now. 1429.
  • I am not sure if this is a goal for 2015 or just a lifetime goal..I really want to be certified to teach spin. I do not think I am there right now with what kind of shape I am in, but I am determined to get back into shape. I am also determined to be certified one day.
  • I want to write and update my blog more. I do not want to update this blog with so many “Transformation Tuesdays” this year. I want actual helpful blog posts. I want to post work out routines, recipes, and helpful advice. Always showing off my transformation is rather annoying..I think so anyway.image (8)
  • This could go along with a 5K or whatever..but I would love to do the three-day Susan G.Komen walk in Philadelphia. I really would love to do this.
  • Um…Ride a mechanical bull. Why has this not happened?


2014 has been a great year even though I lost my habits along the way. I do not regret 2014. It may have not been my year, but I did love every second of it.  I am ready for 2015 though. 2015 is going to make me strong, lean, and mean. I am ready for all the obstacles that will come along my way. My habits will come back, my confidence will be restored, and motivation will stay.

10817868_757125111032027_137307362_aI hope everyone had a wonderful 2014. I hope you all have a fantastic New Year. Get ready for January 1st.  2015 is going to be ours. Great ready everyone! It is not going down without a fight. Happy New Year!!



Saying Goodbye to Weight Watchers for 2015

This was a hard decision for me. I have been doing Weight Watchers since 2010. This whole year I found myself bored with the program. I found myself not tracking and not counting points. Just to remind everyone..I am not a member. I do everything for free. Since I do everything on my own then I physically write things in my notebook. I hate it. I wanted to do the online components but realized how much money it was. It was either I do that or my gym. I rather be a member of my gym.



I downloaded the app My Fitness Pal. I decided I should not count points anymore but calories. I think it will work better for me. All my workouts are calorie based. I find it so difficult to figure out the Weight Watcher points for my workouts. I feel like I am always guessing. Can I sing? Am I sweating? Can I talk? Ugh..So annoying how to figure it out.
Also, I find My Fitness Pal more convenient for I am always on my phone. I am not trying to bash Weight Watchers but it is time for a change. Weight Watchers worked for a while but it is time for something new.


I need to remember one pound at a time. It took me a long time to gain the weight and it will take a long time to lose it. I am still reading and following Bob Harper The Skinny Rules. I find that counting calories will be easier to handle then Weight Watchers with what Bob Harper says we need to do in his book.


Also, January 3rd starts this Diet Bet. If you are interested in earning money then I suggest to join. It is $30 and if you lose 4% of your body weight you could win more or your money back. It is great motivation and I have done it before in the past.


So, I feel bad for saying goodbye to Weight Watchers..but I need to try something new. I need to figure out what is best for me. Calorie counting maybe what is best. I will still eat and buy Weight Watched products. I just will not be following the program.

Stay tune tomorrow..I will write a blog post recapping my year. I gained weight this year but some cool weight loss milestones happened. Also, I will share my goals for 2015. Not resolutions..I do not believe in those..but I will share my goals.


Saying Goodbye to Bad 2014 Habits

2014 was a good year but a bad year with my habits. I will be saying goodbye to 2014 and bringing 2015 as my year. I will do or stop the following:

1.) Workout at least five times a week.
2.) I will write down everything I consume.
3.) I will go back to Weight Watcher point counting and no go below or above 26..unless I will have workout points.
4.) I will stop drinking alcohol. Alcohol has ruined me this year.
5.) I will stop going to fast food. Why? It makes me feel like crap and gain weight.
6.) I will stop giving into temptation. If someone tells me “One will not hurt you.” I will respond with..yes it will. Would you give a drug addict or alcoholic their weakness? Why would you give me mine?
7.) I will follow Bob Harper’s Skinny Rules. It is a great book! I recommend picking it up!

8.) I will stop mindless snacking. What kind of snacking did I do? Eating cereal out of the box..scooping peanut butter out of the jar..buying candy I did not need. No more of that!!
9.) Drink more water!! My water consumption has been poor lately. I need to drink way more of it.
10.) Think positive. My positivity has really gone down. I feel like I can’t do what I used to. That is crap. I lost 80 lbs before and I can lose weight again! No more “I can’t.” I CAN.



I started today right with a Bob Harper dvd and playing Just Dance 2015. I love Just Dance! Everyone loves Zumba, but I love dancing to music that is something you can hear on the radio and know the beat. I love dancing!!

2014 is almost over and I will write a little post about my positives for 2014. Not now. As for 2015..we are going to get mean and lean! I am excited to get back into good habits.


Time for Motivation for 2015!

As I stated before I have almost gained 20 lbs. I let myself go astray. Bob Harper is back in my life while I read his Skinny Rules and do his workouts. I also found the Dietbet to be great motivation. I did it before in the past and even though I did not lose 4%, I did lose 5 lbs. I think I was shy two more pounds. Now that I gained all this weight it maybe easier to lose the 4%. If not..whatever..I need motivation!


I am doing Heidi and Chris Powell’s challenge. I love Chris’s show Extreme Weightloss and I do have a few of his workout DVDs. So It is time to be motivated!!

My size 10 jeans will fit again!!!


Merry Christmas!!!! It’s Not A Sprint, It’s A Marathon…

Merry Christmas!! I hope we are not feeling bloated and fat like me! It is going because I worked out/trained for this week. I even passed on cookie cake on Tuesday and I LOOOOVE cookie cake! I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas/holiday season! I hope we were with everyone we love!




I received many awesome gifts this year. Brian surprised me with a Pandora bracelet, lots of clothes, VS items, and Alex and Ani bracelets.


One bracelet I got was from Alex and Ani and it is “It’s Not A Sprint, But A Marathon” is one that my Mom bought me. This will be my 2015 saying that I will be keeping with me. I believe that this weight loss journey takes time and will not finish quickly like a sprint. 2015 will be my year. No more excuses and no more “I can’t.” 2015 is going down.


Merry Christmas and happy holidays everyone!!


Bob Harper Helped Me Once..He Can Help Me Again


If you know me by now, April 2013 I met Bob Harper. Bob Harper is a fitness trainer who appears on The Biggest Loser. While I love that show, I enjoy his books and his workout DVDs that he has produced outside the brand. Do not get me wrong..When I was 232 lbs I started my workouts with The Biggest Loser brand, but now I want more of a challenge and Bob gives me that. Bob Harper is my fitness trainer. He may not be there in person, but he is my personal trainer.

Well, I let Bob get away from me. Yes, I feel terrible! Why did Bob get away from me? I really do not know..Maybe stress from work and college? Maybe events? Maybe overall stress? I really do not know how Bob got away from me. Maybe I grew bored of his DVDs? I own a couple but due to my graduate school budget..I am broke as a joke. Since I am broke, I can not afford new DVD workouts. I usually buy older ones because they are cheaper. You know what? That is not an excuse. I will actually hop onto Amazon  when I am done writing this blog. There is not excuse that I let Bob get away from me.


If Bob was here right now I wonder if he would be disappointed in me. At one point I was down 152 lbs. Over the course of the last couple months I gained weight. I thought it was muscle at first..and it was. I was doing insane boot camps at my local gym but then my work schedule changed and my masters thesis took over my life. Now all this is over and I am almost TWENTY POUNDS HEAVIER. I am not at the twenty pound mark but I am almost there. I am actually the same weight I was when I met Bob in April 2013.

Rachaelray11 I do not know if he would be disappointed, but I am disappointed in myself. None of my clothes fit me. Here I am during the Christmas season and I do not have a outfit I love because nothing fits. Again..graduate school has made me broke and I do not have the cash to buy new clothes. I do not want to buy new clothes though. The idea of buying a size up in clothes PISSES me off. It makes me angry to think I have to go above my size twelve.


I am also angry because all my healthy habits have gone out the window. I did relax from going into local convenient stores but I still feel as if my healthy habits are gone. I do not work out like I used to and my eating habits seem awful. What is bad about this is I am so aware of all this! I am so aware but I can not stop. I feel like this  needs to change.


While I was cleaning out my book shelf to make room for more books I found the copy of Bob Harper’s Jumpstart to Skinny. I opened it up and stared at the message that he wrote to me. I felt so disappointed in myself but this made me determined that I need to do something different. I worked too hard to keep being like this.

Sure..I kept thinking I PEAKED too soon. What do you mean? All this amazing stuff happened to me with my weight loss in less than a year when I was losing weight. I was recieving many followers on Tumblr  and I was on The Rachael Ray Show. I felt special and so much support. Bob said he would send me things and I thought I would receive the picture I was in with Rachael Ray, Bob Harper, and Shaun.T. That never happened.



Well, things now everything has fizzled. I barely have viewers on this blog. I am not noticed like I was with my weight loss. My Mom and brother who worked harder than me receives all the praise. Which is fine for they worked hard. I stopped receiving followers on my social network. I have peaked too soon. I think everything happened at once and now everything has finally settled in and my fifteen minutes of fame is over.

This does not mean I should change my habits and gain all my weight again. It is time to stop feeling sorry for myself. I am much more then this blog, my social network, and my silly appearance on The Rachael Ray show. I have taken a lot of time thinking about this, but Bob Harper helped me once..he is going to help me again.


I started rereading my copy of The Skinny Rules. As much as I love Jumpstart to Skinny, I believe his skinny rules is more helpful to recreate my healthy habits. As I am rereading I am finding myself going, “DUH!” with so many things. How could I forget to do this or that? So silly! If you have not read this book I really recommend it. I feel it is not like all those diet books out there. He is very clear with his rules. It is not jumbled up and confusing lingo. He is writing for people to help them understand how to lose weight. If you need a diet book for the new year then pick this up. It is one of his older books but the rules still apply!


I need to do Bob Harper workouts again! Once I am done this blog post I am going to do one of his workouts. I miss doing his workouts. I miss hearing my personal trainers voice! Yes, I know I have older DVDs and not the newer stuff. Maybe if I receive more money I will buy a newer one but right now I will stick with what I have. I love his workouts. He loves doing squats and squats makes your butt look good. Everyone wants a great look butt! I also love the routines. They are high impact but not really quick and in your face where you feel like you could blow your knee out. If you never tried his workouts I recommend starting with the Biggest Loser brand first. His regular workouts are a little intense.


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I am sorry I went astray Bob Harper. You helped me once and you can help me again. You are such a caring and inspirational person that it makes me keep on going to do what I need to do. Maybe one day I can do what you have done for millions of people. You are truly an inspiration for me. I do not want to disappoint. I want to motivate others and myself. I worked too hard to feel this way. I worked too hard to feel sorry for myself and defeated. I HAVE WORKED TOO HARD! It is time to get off my butt and workout! It is time to say NO to going out to eat, alcoholic drinks, candy, and over eating. These habits were my 232 lb self. I am sick of this. I WORKED TO DAMN HARD.

Bob Harper was barely in my year for 2014. 2015 will be different. Bob Harper is back in my life starting TODAY.